Saturday, January 09, 2010
woah! today's post is officially my 400th one.
some might say little, some might say a lot.
i say, A LOT! teehee!
congrates to myself. bows*
but obviously, i will not blog today about this.
anyway, this first week of school had been a hectic one
and when i say BUSY!
like mad crazy-ness...
non stop lessons (except break times)
non stop homework (seriously...)
but,
there are non stop laughter and fun as well!
especially CME teacher!
plus non stop mosquito bites ( i think i have 8 already)
anyway, well ya,
busy-ness kepy me occupied!
but then whenever i went home,
i have to confess about feeling lonely, left out and uncared for stuff
i dont know if it is the evil one who is trying to put thoughts into my head
spoil my mood (especially since i am leading worship tmr)
people say,
just dont care, dont think about it.
i really learnt, easily said then done.
you will not know how much struggles you have to put through unless you experienced it before.
well ya, yesterday was that kind of day,
that lonely period.
argh! annoyed! i know all the thoughts are untrue,
but fighting it hard seemed to be not working. i could get a headache man!
anyway, my initial plan was to have a solitude time.
just some alone time to think.
to eat alone for a change.
but well, went with louiza and her friend!
hahaha! glad i could help louiza's friend (GOD'S PERFECT TIMING!)
oh and then went to church alone,
met rachel raja there.
and had an awesome duet (2 people) jamming time with her.
just singing songs like deep of your grace with her!
it was a really expressive time
two of us, playing guitar and singing out lungs out!
just free worshiping with no embarrassment
we both felt like crap, and
when we just got together,
even different strumming patterns become melody!
we just flowed!
it was an awesome time!
really should have more of that!
i thank GOD for people like rachel raja!
such an awesome girl.
i really can see changes in her!
she stepping up is the greatest and i am super proud of her for that!
and if rachel raja reads this,
i want to tell her that i think i can connect with her really well true music.
two thinkers, musical talents, singing, worshipping = SMILES! : DDD
LOVE YOU GIRL!
ttm! : DDD
i also want to thank janice and louiza for listening to me.
for like, just comforting me!
haha, thats a change.
it always seemed as though i was comforting them.
but i dont know, i cried out to them.
(well, mostly to janice. i was on a verge of ___ with louiza)
guess i was just bottling up too long.
but releasing is definitely freedom!
thanks girls!
so tomorrow is worship
and i am kinda nervous
i really dont know how things will turn up.
will there be people even coming tomorrow?
etc etc
but hey, my mother reminded me this
you are serving to glorify God and not men.
even if there are only 1 person coming/attending.
the worship goes on!
oh and i was singing devine exchange today during prac.
this phrase just flash by my head:
it is not how much gifts you give, but what kind of gifts you give to God.
so, it is not how much talent you can offer to Christ, but your attitude when you do so! : DDD
alright to conclude:
psalms 37:4
delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart
some might say little, some might say a lot.
i say, A LOT! teehee!
congrates to myself. bows*
but obviously, i will not blog today about this.
anyway, this first week of school had been a hectic one
and when i say BUSY!
like mad crazy-ness...
non stop lessons (except break times)
non stop homework (seriously...)
but,
there are non stop laughter and fun as well!
especially CME teacher!
plus non stop mosquito bites ( i think i have 8 already)
anyway, well ya,
busy-ness kepy me occupied!
but then whenever i went home,
i have to confess about feeling lonely, left out and uncared for stuff
i dont know if it is the evil one who is trying to put thoughts into my head
spoil my mood (especially since i am leading worship tmr)
people say,
just dont care, dont think about it.
i really learnt, easily said then done.
you will not know how much struggles you have to put through unless you experienced it before.
well ya, yesterday was that kind of day,
that lonely period.
argh! annoyed! i know all the thoughts are untrue,
but fighting it hard seemed to be not working. i could get a headache man!
anyway, my initial plan was to have a solitude time.
just some alone time to think.
to eat alone for a change.
but well, went with louiza and her friend!
hahaha! glad i could help louiza's friend (GOD'S PERFECT TIMING!)
oh and then went to church alone,
met rachel raja there.
and had an awesome duet (2 people) jamming time with her.
just singing songs like deep of your grace with her!
it was a really expressive time
two of us, playing guitar and singing out lungs out!
just free worshiping with no embarrassment
we both felt like crap, and
when we just got together,
even different strumming patterns become melody!
we just flowed!
it was an awesome time!
really should have more of that!
i thank GOD for people like rachel raja!
such an awesome girl.
i really can see changes in her!
she stepping up is the greatest and i am super proud of her for that!
and if rachel raja reads this,
i want to tell her that i think i can connect with her really well true music.
two thinkers, musical talents, singing, worshipping = SMILES! : DDD
LOVE YOU GIRL!
ttm! : DDD
i also want to thank janice and louiza for listening to me.
for like, just comforting me!
haha, thats a change.
it always seemed as though i was comforting them.
but i dont know, i cried out to them.
(well, mostly to janice. i was on a verge of ___ with louiza)
guess i was just bottling up too long.
but releasing is definitely freedom!
thanks girls!
so tomorrow is worship
and i am kinda nervous
i really dont know how things will turn up.
will there be people even coming tomorrow?
etc etc
but hey, my mother reminded me this
you are serving to glorify God and not men.
even if there are only 1 person coming/attending.
the worship goes on!
oh and i was singing devine exchange today during prac.
this phrase just flash by my head:
it is not how much gifts you give, but what kind of gifts you give to God.
so, it is not how much talent you can offer to Christ, but your attitude when you do so! : DDD
alright to conclude:
psalms 37:4
delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart
date: 28March, 10.39pm
drinking: liangteh.
eating: nth.
mood: ARGH!.
listening: tv outside
reading: nth.
random: sec 3, term 2 week 2 day 1.