Saturday, January 30, 2010
hee hee!i have not blog for like the entire week?!
oh well,
update on my life!
life has been busy, especially with all the projects such as chinese new year deco and stuff
woah!
i think i am in need of sleep too!
homework just keep on coming and coming...
and there is something fishy going on in school.
just dont know what is it yet.
and yesterday, munchers went over to rachel raja's house for cell!
watched a super awesome movie by steven spielberd (argh! cannot spell)
but sadly, we didnt get to complete the whole movie
something is really wrong with the dvd player or cd.
ate a lot!
good food man! but did not get to eat my banana split!
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but went home late!
haha! for once! : DDD
yes, my birthday is coming!
2 more days only!
but i cant celebrate on 1st feb, : (
no time.
oh well, tomorrow will be the celebration day.
excited : DDDD
oh well,
right now i am taking a break from studying.
speaking of taking a break,
cant you believe that march holidays is coming?!
half a term has already passed!
how quick is that.
anyway,
i am having a problem.
i need to get a lot of cip hours and cca point this year!
for the sake of the minus 2points in JC!
thus, i want to go for the school mission trip in march.
it does not collide with the "getaway camp" but my parents say i can only choose one.
sobs!
how do you choose!
studies or spiritual life?!
people tell me, ask yourself lydia, what would Jesus do...
seriously, i ask you back, what do you think HE will do.
i am not sure myself!
my dad say, Jesus would honour His parents,
but remember when Jesus was young, His parents thought they lost Him, but He was at the house of God listening and talking about God.
He chose spiritual. and i do not know what to choose now.
it aint easy to decide!
why cant i do both?
i do not believe i am that kind of person who has to give up one for the other.
i can excel in both! I CAN!
i heard of so many people's testimonies about how they live their life serving God and yet score super well!
i want to be them.
and right now, what i need is God.
only He can tell me what to do,
only He can tell my parents, convince them...
oh well!
smile lydia!
tomorrow is the day! : DDD
2 Timothy 2:1 NIV
...be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus.
Monday, January 25, 2010
well, life seems to be getting better
but i dont know why today i was so tired in school
yarn!
mondays are usually the best days,
but today was just
BORING!
but time past real fast though.
and yes to the people out there!
i do think a lot.
too much maybe.
oh and crossings 2 next week!
woots! get to skip 2 and a half days of school!
no tests! yeah!!!!!!!!
hahaha, i got tickets for jan and zy.
wished i can invite more friends.
hee hee! who knows?! maybe there are extra tickets?
ya, its free. so everyone should come.
(hint to the jan and zy! can i have a rose?!)
speaking of roses,
valentines day is coming!
haha! it is happening on the same day as chinese new year!
that means, i will be in malaysia
and the means, i have to past my girls cards by friday.
well, it i even have time to make,
but will squeeze time. somehow...
hope i dont disappoint.
valentines day seem to be friendship day than a guy to girl thing.
especially in st nich.
the irony of seeing a girl school so enthu about valentines.
oh well! free food, free flowers, free cards!
love that thought : DDD
and speaking about free cards,
hey hey hey!
my birthday is coming! and i am turning 15.
darn fast, i am a old granny man.
my parents keep on reminding me, a year older= more responsibility
more look at the bright side! a year older= more freedom!
hahaha!
(i just love birthdays! dont you?! hint*)
well, i should better start on my work now.
and tomorrow i have chinese test.
oh...crappy!
may i pass, please....*prays*
Psalms 55: 22
Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.
but i dont know why today i was so tired in school
yarn!
mondays are usually the best days,
but today was just
BORING!
but time past real fast though.
and yes to the people out there!
i do think a lot.
too much maybe.
oh and crossings 2 next week!
woots! get to skip 2 and a half days of school!
no tests! yeah!!!!!!!!
hahaha, i got tickets for jan and zy.
wished i can invite more friends.
hee hee! who knows?! maybe there are extra tickets?
ya, its free. so everyone should come.
(hint to the jan and zy! can i have a rose?!)
speaking of roses,
valentines day is coming!
haha! it is happening on the same day as chinese new year!
that means, i will be in malaysia
and the means, i have to past my girls cards by friday.
well, it i even have time to make,
but will squeeze time. somehow...
hope i dont disappoint.
valentines day seem to be friendship day than a guy to girl thing.
especially in st nich.
the irony of seeing a girl school so enthu about valentines.
oh well! free food, free flowers, free cards!
love that thought : DDD
and speaking about free cards,
hey hey hey!
my birthday is coming! and i am turning 15.
darn fast, i am a old granny man.
my parents keep on reminding me, a year older= more responsibility
more look at the bright side! a year older= more freedom!
hahaha!
(i just love birthdays! dont you?! hint*)
well, i should better start on my work now.
and tomorrow i have chinese test.
oh...crappy!
may i pass, please....*prays*
Psalms 55: 22
Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
love is unfailing. true love is given out of freewill and not with a condition.
i realise how important they are.
you are.
(darn...i getting emo)
i know, the hectic week of week 3.
i really need to reconsider my way of structuring my timetable
realised that i had been focusing on my studies, and church stuff
that i tend to neglect friends and family.
argh! how do all those 10 A1 students do it?!
how do they manage time so well, and have time to serve God too!
everyone has 24h, why cant i be as productive as them?
really need to pray.
i dont know what is wrong with me, but i am getting angry easily
for small matters
really small ones.
the evil one is really fooling around with my head
aint fun, its suffering.
right now, i have a stronger feeling to not be a hypocrite
i write all those encouragement notes,
i need to follow those too
ya, it is easier to give advises then to follow your own advises
and i agree with estella,
i have the knowledge, but need to learn how to apply it.
sigh.
yup, blowing the candles real soon...
teehee.
*prays*
i realise how important they are.
you are.
(darn...i getting emo)
i know, the hectic week of week 3.
i really need to reconsider my way of structuring my timetable
realised that i had been focusing on my studies, and church stuff
that i tend to neglect friends and family.
argh! how do all those 10 A1 students do it?!
how do they manage time so well, and have time to serve God too!
everyone has 24h, why cant i be as productive as them?
really need to pray.
i dont know what is wrong with me, but i am getting angry easily
for small matters
really small ones.
the evil one is really fooling around with my head
aint fun, its suffering.
right now, i have a stronger feeling to not be a hypocrite
i write all those encouragement notes,
i need to follow those too
ya, it is easier to give advises then to follow your own advises
and i agree with estella,
i have the knowledge, but need to learn how to apply it.
sigh.
yup, blowing the candles real soon...
teehee.
*prays*
Friday, January 22, 2010
guess what?!
i have almost done 50 post its! and it has only been like 4 days? : DDD
HORRAY!
posted all of them on facebook
anyway,
i am getting really tired these few days.
if you have read my fb,
you would see this
" i am unknowing turning into a mugger"
ya, how cant i?!
everyday coming back with tons of homework, projects, performances etc.
ya, stress. but thank GOD i am still coping!
pray lydia pray!
haha and ya,
i am turning 15 soon.
haha, joy tired to jeck me that i am older already (that happened yesterday)
epic fail.
LOL~
i am kinda enjoying classes.
being a fool and stuff!
but i am equally excited to get back at home, hoping that cell will come plus sunday services :D
truely treasure the silence and solitude times...
well, nothing much to post about...
just that i am praying that more inspirational quotes will come,
i will manage time wisely and that life will be fulfilling : DDD
Monday, January 18, 2010
totally inspired by thingsweforget.blogspotcomi think that man is a genius
and i think i found my way of encouraging people!
why not drop by and pop a post it note on a friend's desk wishing her
all the best?!
it goes a long way!
seriously!
anyway cheers to this.
i credit this inspiration idea to thingsweforget.blogspot.com
and i credit this motivation to God plus paul(from the bible) : DDD
hopefully i will have time to do this though...
Sunday, January 17, 2010
i am going to learn from paul (from the bible)
to be a person who encourages.
i noticed that paul is constantly travelling everywhere to individual churches
to provide words of encouragement.
like maintaining friendships,
maintaining unity in the church works in the same way.
you have to understand what the church is going through,
heart to heart conversations.
and then gain their trust before you can minister to them.
paul cares and understands.
and he had the trust of the people.
i bet he was the church mentor, the role model that everyone follows, the inspiring teacher.
therefore, when he encourages.
it goes super far.
i think i am going to start encouraging people!
still deciding how to though...but i will try.
this is something i wrote in my devotion journal:
"i feel that words of encouragement are like tiny seeds of blessings that you sow into a person's heart. it starts out small, but it will grow and bloom into big trees with an abundance of fruits.(touching the person's life) from there, the the fruits of blessing/encouragement will reproduce"
well, i guess that is how encouragement works.
you encourage, you bless someone
the person who is blessed, encourage someone else.
a beautiful chain of love.
maybe the first encouragement i want to give you guys out there is this;
sometimes it is during our troubles, we learn the most.
sometimes it is during our lost, we gain the most
sometimes it is during our suffering, we grow the most
sometimes it is during our confusion, we realise the most
sometimes it is during our breakdowns, we smile the most.
never give up people!
God loves you!
Psalms 46: 1-3
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
selah.
Matthew 11:28
come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
to be a person who encourages.
i noticed that paul is constantly travelling everywhere to individual churches
to provide words of encouragement.
like maintaining friendships,
maintaining unity in the church works in the same way.
you have to understand what the church is going through,
heart to heart conversations.
and then gain their trust before you can minister to them.
paul cares and understands.
and he had the trust of the people.
i bet he was the church mentor, the role model that everyone follows, the inspiring teacher.
therefore, when he encourages.
it goes super far.
i think i am going to start encouraging people!
still deciding how to though...but i will try.
this is something i wrote in my devotion journal:
"i feel that words of encouragement are like tiny seeds of blessings that you sow into a person's heart. it starts out small, but it will grow and bloom into big trees with an abundance of fruits.(touching the person's life) from there, the the fruits of blessing/encouragement will reproduce"
well, i guess that is how encouragement works.
you encourage, you bless someone
the person who is blessed, encourage someone else.
a beautiful chain of love.
maybe the first encouragement i want to give you guys out there is this;
sometimes it is during our troubles, we learn the most.
sometimes it is during our lost, we gain the most
sometimes it is during our suffering, we grow the most
sometimes it is during our confusion, we realise the most
sometimes it is during our breakdowns, we smile the most.
never give up people!
God loves you!
Psalms 46: 1-3
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.
selah.
Matthew 11:28
come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
maybe,
i should just restart
from the top/beginning.
again.
(i think i did something wrong...)
i should just restart
from the top/beginning.
again.
(i think i did something wrong...)
sometimes i wish i can take back whatever i said
least i want to do is to hurt people's feelings
i never ever want to make a friend cry due to my insensitivity
i care.
i know how much my friends care for me too.
dont you wish sometimes the crappiest day will just pass
and a bright one will come next?!
dont you wish you will stop crying on your pillow
and know that tomorrow is a fresh new day
dont you wish you can be forever happy?
forever close.
i feel like a hypocrite now.
and i am sorry to all those who are against them
but dont you think sometimes when you are down
you just cant seem to listen to your own advise?
i need a mentor now
i need advises
i need a mature christian mentor
i need someone who stays to listen
i need someone who been through this before
i am always hoping
that these problems will pass
cause i know once is pass
a better stronger friendship/relationship will form
it may be a stormy time now,
but after the storm a rainbow will be form
a sign of hope.
brand new joy.
true joy.
i am also hoping these problems will not last for more than 2 weeks
hope you know why.
ya,
THE DAY will be here.
anyway,
i still thank God for friends that i can always rely on
those that make me laugh,
those that make me smile
those that make life bright.
tough times dont last, but tough people do.
AMEN!
least i want to do is to hurt people's feelings
i never ever want to make a friend cry due to my insensitivity
i care.
i know how much my friends care for me too.
dont you wish sometimes the crappiest day will just pass
and a bright one will come next?!
dont you wish you will stop crying on your pillow
and know that tomorrow is a fresh new day
dont you wish you can be forever happy?
forever close.
i feel like a hypocrite now.
and i am sorry to all those who are against them
but dont you think sometimes when you are down
you just cant seem to listen to your own advise?
i need a mentor now
i need advises
i need a mature christian mentor
i need someone who stays to listen
i need someone who been through this before
i am always hoping
that these problems will pass
cause i know once is pass
a better stronger friendship/relationship will form
it may be a stormy time now,
but after the storm a rainbow will be form
a sign of hope.
brand new joy.
true joy.
i am also hoping these problems will not last for more than 2 weeks
hope you know why.
ya,
THE DAY will be here.
anyway,
i still thank God for friends that i can always rely on
those that make me laugh,
those that make me smile
those that make life bright.
tough times dont last, but tough people do.
AMEN!
Thursday, January 14, 2010
When The Muggers Come Alive...
Xxon name in chinese: by Xinru&Lydia
going through quadratic equations- general solution
animal cell...lol recalling
the whole entire board! (done by Xinru&Lydia)
so ya,
you have just seen what i have been doing for past few days
work, mug (well cannot really say mug yet)
but yes, unending hours of lessons n study
losing all my fun time.
that reminds me,
i have not played my guitar and piano for a few days!
NO!!!!
currently reading history textbook
haha, total joy. it is like a story book.
especially when right now i am reading chap1.
WORLD WAR 1.
super drama...
oh yes,
so what has happened this week so far?
well, i failed my chinese spelling..
seriously fail like to the bottom pit.
but i did learn my lesson.
apologised to chinese teacher
and i relearnt my spelling words and test myself,
a way to make up.
i guess.
oh ya, and i went over to xinru's class yesterday,
and we recited what we learnt.
-_-lll
muggers.
well, life has been quite normal.
and i cant wait for cell tomorrow!
i want to learn about God again.
i want to enter the church again, get away from hectic life
and feel God's presence.
btw, i am going to blow out my 15 candles soon!
Teehee, ShamWOOHOO!
Psalms 43: 3-4
Send forth Your light and Your truth, let them guide me; let them bring me to Your holy mountain, to the place where You dwell.
Then will i go to the altar of God, to God, my joy and my delight. i will praise You with the harp, O God, my God.
Psalms 44:3
It was not by their sword that they won the land, nor did their arm bring them victory; it was Your (God) right hand, Your arm and the light of Your face, for You loved them.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
drama- art of the character mask
oh yes, i feel way better now : DDDwell chilled.
firstly, got things sorted out
secondly, chinese spelling is over (dont think i will do well though)
thirdly, almost complete my maths hw (except for one super hard question)
character masks is super hard to use
i rather use neutural one.
way more expressive.
i thank God for friends who care.
btw, i just realise (AGAIN) that my birthday is coming...
teehee
HINT*
psalms 42:8
By day the Lord directs His love,
at night His song is with me-
a prayer to the God of my life
Monday, January 11, 2010
settled.
praise God.
praise God.
i just have to blog again now.
to get things off my mind.
i dont know why, i have never been worried for a person so much before
till linking to life and death
why is my brain so complex.
i missed just by 6min!
and so many things can rush into my brain
no answering of calls, texts etc
aint you at all....
i really dont know what is going on.
and i really want to know.
ease the fear and anxiousness please
.
i cant take it,
my heart is like pumping super duper fast.
like i cant stop staring at my cell phone
hence, putting it to outdoor mode.
may the ringtone just ring!!!!
i try to ease everything but filling my head with work
maths, chinese. tough stuff
aint working!
what is this?
is God trying to tell me something.
or is He trying to show me something..
i dont know.
sometimes, i just wish answers will come as quick as the speed of light
i know, maybe i am just being plain stupid.
but let me ask you this.
why wasnt i worried about something like that as much before?
why is this the first
give me the answer for that please!
called loui, and talked to rachel.
but still,
ARGH!
i am only left to waiting.
i will not miss the call again.
and whatever you do,
dont do the jump or anything stupid.
(a post to relief myself)
to get things off my mind.
i dont know why, i have never been worried for a person so much before
till linking to life and death
why is my brain so complex.
i missed just by 6min!
and so many things can rush into my brain
no answering of calls, texts etc
aint you at all....
i really dont know what is going on.
and i really want to know.
ease the fear and anxiousness please
.
i cant take it,
my heart is like pumping super duper fast.
like i cant stop staring at my cell phone
hence, putting it to outdoor mode.
may the ringtone just ring!!!!
i try to ease everything but filling my head with work
maths, chinese. tough stuff
aint working!
what is this?
is God trying to tell me something.
or is He trying to show me something..
i dont know.
sometimes, i just wish answers will come as quick as the speed of light
i know, maybe i am just being plain stupid.
but let me ask you this.
why wasnt i worried about something like that as much before?
why is this the first
give me the answer for that please!
called loui, and talked to rachel.
but still,
ARGH!
i am only left to waiting.
i will not miss the call again.
and whatever you do,
dont do the jump or anything stupid.
(a post to relief myself)
psalms 41:1-3, 10-13
Blessed is he who regard for the weak; the Lord delivers him in times of trouble.
The Lord will protect him and preserve his life; He will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes.
The Lord will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness.
---
But You, O Lord, have mercy on me; raise me up, that I may repay them.
I know that You are pleased with me, for my enemy does not triumph over me.
In my intergrity You uphold me and set me in Your presence forever.
Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting.
Amen and Amen...
( i am praying this desperately...)
Blessed is he who regard for the weak; the Lord delivers him in times of trouble.
The Lord will protect him and preserve his life; He will bless him in the land and not surrender him to the desire of his foes.
The Lord will sustain him on his sickbed and restore him from his bed of illness.
---
But You, O Lord, have mercy on me; raise me up, that I may repay them.
I know that You are pleased with me, for my enemy does not triumph over me.
In my intergrity You uphold me and set me in Your presence forever.
Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel, from everlasting to everlasting.
Amen and Amen...
( i am praying this desperately...)
Sunday, January 10, 2010
The Deep Of Your Grace
artist: Hillsongs
Verse 1:
You are the Shepherd
Giving what I could not afford
Leaving the many
You sought to find me Lord
Verse 2:
I will remember
You are the reason for my song
Blessed Redeemer
You love me as Your own
Chorus:
In the deep of Your grace
All my sins are washed away
Here I know the power of forgiveness
Here I know the power of Your blood
Bridge:
All I am
will I lay down
All I have
before Your cross Lord
ya, i duet jam-ed this piece with rachel raja! : DDD
should have more of that.
anyway,
today's worship was seriously awesome
can practically feel God's presence.
and i cried during worship!
(worship leader somemore)
a bit embarrassing...but i know, it was genuine
but was i touched? or am i triggered/ burdened for something.
God taught me a lesson that as a worship leader, you do not need to be concern about how many people will be coming to church!
my mum told me,
the job of a worship leader is just to lead the people to the river of worship
whether they want to jump in or not into the presence of God is their own choice.
ya, how did i learn that?
welll, started off that during the first part of worship,
few people were present.
and i was honestly (a bit discouraged)
but as i started worshiping and by the time it came to the slow songs.
i really saw that many chairs of the shalom hall were filled!
it isnt about the people
we serve to glorify God and not men!
but however,
you know when one problem is changed to a good thing.
another problem arises.
well, that is what i just went through.
i just felt super upset that i dont have that much freedom as my friends.
i see my friends go out frequently, and as i look through my time table for this sec 3.
i was like wtc?!
darn annoying that a student life is about studying only.
hey, that is so contradicting.
wasnt there a saying that teenage life should be fun?
what happened to that.
ya, i am complaining.
argh. i need to keep my mouth shut man!
murmuring aint good!
the bible says give thanks always!
but now i can see what a challenge that is... sigh
need God's strength.
another week of school starting tomorrow
may the Lord just bless it
and may He open the doors to let me go to leadership training this sat.
Prays*
psalms 40:1-3
I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; He set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.
artist: Hillsongs
Verse 1:
You are the Shepherd
Giving what I could not afford
Leaving the many
You sought to find me Lord
Verse 2:
I will remember
You are the reason for my song
Blessed Redeemer
You love me as Your own
Chorus:
In the deep of Your grace
All my sins are washed away
Here I know the power of forgiveness
Here I know the power of Your blood
Bridge:
All I am
will I lay down
All I have
before Your cross Lord
ya, i duet jam-ed this piece with rachel raja! : DDD
should have more of that.
anyway,
today's worship was seriously awesome
can practically feel God's presence.
and i cried during worship!
(worship leader somemore)
a bit embarrassing...but i know, it was genuine
but was i touched? or am i triggered/ burdened for something.
God taught me a lesson that as a worship leader, you do not need to be concern about how many people will be coming to church!
my mum told me,
the job of a worship leader is just to lead the people to the river of worship
whether they want to jump in or not into the presence of God is their own choice.
ya, how did i learn that?
welll, started off that during the first part of worship,
few people were present.
and i was honestly (a bit discouraged)
but as i started worshiping and by the time it came to the slow songs.
i really saw that many chairs of the shalom hall were filled!
it isnt about the people
we serve to glorify God and not men!
but however,
you know when one problem is changed to a good thing.
another problem arises.
well, that is what i just went through.
i just felt super upset that i dont have that much freedom as my friends.
i see my friends go out frequently, and as i look through my time table for this sec 3.
i was like wtc?!
darn annoying that a student life is about studying only.
hey, that is so contradicting.
wasnt there a saying that teenage life should be fun?
what happened to that.
ya, i am complaining.
argh. i need to keep my mouth shut man!
murmuring aint good!
the bible says give thanks always!
but now i can see what a challenge that is... sigh
need God's strength.
another week of school starting tomorrow
may the Lord just bless it
and may He open the doors to let me go to leadership training this sat.
Prays*
psalms 40:1-3
I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; He set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.
Saturday, January 09, 2010
woah! today's post is officially my 400th one.
some might say little, some might say a lot.
i say, A LOT! teehee!
congrates to myself. bows*
but obviously, i will not blog today about this.
anyway, this first week of school had been a hectic one
and when i say BUSY!
like mad crazy-ness...
non stop lessons (except break times)
non stop homework (seriously...)
but,
there are non stop laughter and fun as well!
especially CME teacher!
plus non stop mosquito bites ( i think i have 8 already)
anyway, well ya,
busy-ness kepy me occupied!
but then whenever i went home,
i have to confess about feeling lonely, left out and uncared for stuff
i dont know if it is the evil one who is trying to put thoughts into my head
spoil my mood (especially since i am leading worship tmr)
people say,
just dont care, dont think about it.
i really learnt, easily said then done.
you will not know how much struggles you have to put through unless you experienced it before.
well ya, yesterday was that kind of day,
that lonely period.
argh! annoyed! i know all the thoughts are untrue,
but fighting it hard seemed to be not working. i could get a headache man!
anyway, my initial plan was to have a solitude time.
just some alone time to think.
to eat alone for a change.
but well, went with louiza and her friend!
hahaha! glad i could help louiza's friend (GOD'S PERFECT TIMING!)
oh and then went to church alone,
met rachel raja there.
and had an awesome duet (2 people) jamming time with her.
just singing songs like deep of your grace with her!
it was a really expressive time
two of us, playing guitar and singing out lungs out!
just free worshiping with no embarrassment
we both felt like crap, and
when we just got together,
even different strumming patterns become melody!
we just flowed!
it was an awesome time!
really should have more of that!
i thank GOD for people like rachel raja!
such an awesome girl.
i really can see changes in her!
she stepping up is the greatest and i am super proud of her for that!
and if rachel raja reads this,
i want to tell her that i think i can connect with her really well true music.
two thinkers, musical talents, singing, worshipping = SMILES! : DDD
LOVE YOU GIRL!
ttm! : DDD
i also want to thank janice and louiza for listening to me.
for like, just comforting me!
haha, thats a change.
it always seemed as though i was comforting them.
but i dont know, i cried out to them.
(well, mostly to janice. i was on a verge of ___ with louiza)
guess i was just bottling up too long.
but releasing is definitely freedom!
thanks girls!
so tomorrow is worship
and i am kinda nervous
i really dont know how things will turn up.
will there be people even coming tomorrow?
etc etc
but hey, my mother reminded me this
you are serving to glorify God and not men.
even if there are only 1 person coming/attending.
the worship goes on!
oh and i was singing devine exchange today during prac.
this phrase just flash by my head:
it is not how much gifts you give, but what kind of gifts you give to God.
so, it is not how much talent you can offer to Christ, but your attitude when you do so! : DDD
alright to conclude:
psalms 37:4
delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart
some might say little, some might say a lot.
i say, A LOT! teehee!
congrates to myself. bows*
but obviously, i will not blog today about this.
anyway, this first week of school had been a hectic one
and when i say BUSY!
like mad crazy-ness...
non stop lessons (except break times)
non stop homework (seriously...)
but,
there are non stop laughter and fun as well!
especially CME teacher!
plus non stop mosquito bites ( i think i have 8 already)
anyway, well ya,
busy-ness kepy me occupied!
but then whenever i went home,
i have to confess about feeling lonely, left out and uncared for stuff
i dont know if it is the evil one who is trying to put thoughts into my head
spoil my mood (especially since i am leading worship tmr)
people say,
just dont care, dont think about it.
i really learnt, easily said then done.
you will not know how much struggles you have to put through unless you experienced it before.
well ya, yesterday was that kind of day,
that lonely period.
argh! annoyed! i know all the thoughts are untrue,
but fighting it hard seemed to be not working. i could get a headache man!
anyway, my initial plan was to have a solitude time.
just some alone time to think.
to eat alone for a change.
but well, went with louiza and her friend!
hahaha! glad i could help louiza's friend (GOD'S PERFECT TIMING!)
oh and then went to church alone,
met rachel raja there.
and had an awesome duet (2 people) jamming time with her.
just singing songs like deep of your grace with her!
it was a really expressive time
two of us, playing guitar and singing out lungs out!
just free worshiping with no embarrassment
we both felt like crap, and
when we just got together,
even different strumming patterns become melody!
we just flowed!
it was an awesome time!
really should have more of that!
i thank GOD for people like rachel raja!
such an awesome girl.
i really can see changes in her!
she stepping up is the greatest and i am super proud of her for that!
and if rachel raja reads this,
i want to tell her that i think i can connect with her really well true music.
two thinkers, musical talents, singing, worshipping = SMILES! : DDD
LOVE YOU GIRL!
ttm! : DDD
i also want to thank janice and louiza for listening to me.
for like, just comforting me!
haha, thats a change.
it always seemed as though i was comforting them.
but i dont know, i cried out to them.
(well, mostly to janice. i was on a verge of ___ with louiza)
guess i was just bottling up too long.
but releasing is definitely freedom!
thanks girls!
so tomorrow is worship
and i am kinda nervous
i really dont know how things will turn up.
will there be people even coming tomorrow?
etc etc
but hey, my mother reminded me this
you are serving to glorify God and not men.
even if there are only 1 person coming/attending.
the worship goes on!
oh and i was singing devine exchange today during prac.
this phrase just flash by my head:
it is not how much gifts you give, but what kind of gifts you give to God.
so, it is not how much talent you can offer to Christ, but your attitude when you do so! : DDD
alright to conclude:
psalms 37:4
delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desires of your heart
Wednesday, January 06, 2010
i have have have to blog about this
i think i have finally discovered the theme of this year 2010!
YEAH!
it is about managing my walk with God and academics.
and my theme verse is
Psalms 37:4
"Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart"
that is how i am feeling right now,
and i am really encouraged by this verse that i read today during my devotion
actually, i was not supposed to read psalms 37, but something just forced me to continue reading on!
this week, sunday began like normal,
but a shocking news of leading worship frightened me to the max.
i knew i took up leadership and worship leader position in church
but i did not expect a task so quickly
and worst, i just started school!
monday, first day of school.
as i was preparing for the songs, i was bombarded with tons of work!
and i was just struggling during my first 3 days of school!
i argued with people of my piority in life,
and i came to a conclusion then,
God must come first in my life and not academics.
without God,
even with the greatest amount of effort put into studying,
you will fail.
all things are possible only through Christ!
i really thank God for the theme,
and i pray that psalms 37: 4
will lead me throughout this year!
woots!
i think i have finally discovered the theme of this year 2010!
YEAH!
it is about managing my walk with God and academics.
and my theme verse is
Psalms 37:4
"Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart"
that is how i am feeling right now,
and i am really encouraged by this verse that i read today during my devotion
actually, i was not supposed to read psalms 37, but something just forced me to continue reading on!
this week, sunday began like normal,
but a shocking news of leading worship frightened me to the max.
i knew i took up leadership and worship leader position in church
but i did not expect a task so quickly
and worst, i just started school!
monday, first day of school.
as i was preparing for the songs, i was bombarded with tons of work!
and i was just struggling during my first 3 days of school!
i argued with people of my piority in life,
and i came to a conclusion then,
God must come first in my life and not academics.
without God,
even with the greatest amount of effort put into studying,
you will fail.
all things are possible only through Christ!
i really thank God for the theme,
and i pray that psalms 37: 4
will lead me throughout this year!
woots!
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
BUSY TO THE MAX!
okay, i am really squeezing time to blog about sec 3 so far
ya, second day of school and i am really busy
cant believe it
first day of school and there comes lessons and homework!
and right now, i have to prepare for tests, worship, do homework etc.
argh!
i really need strength!
class is good,
got aircon
but quite afraid of the school environment.
they say have snakes n deadly mosquitoes.
oh well,
i cant believe school is so hectic that i cant find time to sneak sms like used to
afraid that i will miss something
but oh joy!
tomorrow,
i have free periods
best thing about taking drama!
oh ya, a performance is coming on 4 feb?
who interested?!
LOL!
anyway, time to quickly end of with a verse,
Psalms 18: 28-29
You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light.
With Your help i can advance against a troop;
with my God i can scale a wall
AMEN! : DDD
okay, i am really squeezing time to blog about sec 3 so far
ya, second day of school and i am really busy
cant believe it
first day of school and there comes lessons and homework!
and right now, i have to prepare for tests, worship, do homework etc.
argh!
i really need strength!
class is good,
got aircon
but quite afraid of the school environment.
they say have snakes n deadly mosquitoes.
oh well,
i cant believe school is so hectic that i cant find time to sneak sms like used to
afraid that i will miss something
but oh joy!
tomorrow,
i have free periods
best thing about taking drama!
oh ya, a performance is coming on 4 feb?
who interested?!
LOL!
anyway, time to quickly end of with a verse,
Psalms 18: 28-29
You, O Lord, keep my lamp burning;
my God turns my darkness into light.
With Your help i can advance against a troop;
with my God i can scale a wall
AMEN! : DDD
Sunday, January 03, 2010
okay, school is tomorrow~
and guess what,
diligence, faith and grace is located at a container classroom
wtc?! but they did say there will be aircon.
hmmm...but~
newsflash:
i will be blogging quite irregular, due to school
oh and dani scared me again,
worship leading next week.
(thanks choy.)
and now i have to fit in to school and prepare worship
heart beat pumping real fast.
i was thinking,
3months(nearly) without studying,
how am i ever going to get back to the studying mode?
oh well...
today.
once upon a time,
three people sat on the stairs.
talking about serious stuff that could not be bottled up.
one was a girl who wrote blogs that contains a lot of info about her actions (only)
another was a girl who wrote blogs about thoughts
and lastly there was a girl who wrote short sweet random posts (for blogs)
and how did that conversation ended?
a load of burden lifted, but
unsolved.
the end....
(well, for now.)
*to be continued*
did not go for rollerblading
sobs.
and i want to go out, but cant.
sobs.
but at least i solved my detective game online
woots.
okay,
i have nothing to say
cant you believe i am reading this to nat as i type?
nope.
and now i am just getting random!
i feel like talking to people!
actually, i feel like helping people!
just to end off with hope!
psalms 33:18-19
But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in His unfailing love,
to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine.
and guess what,
diligence, faith and grace is located at a container classroom
wtc?! but they did say there will be aircon.
hmmm...but~
newsflash:
i will be blogging quite irregular, due to school
oh and dani scared me again,
worship leading next week.
(thanks choy.)
and now i have to fit in to school and prepare worship
heart beat pumping real fast.
i was thinking,
3months(nearly) without studying,
how am i ever going to get back to the studying mode?
oh well...
today.
once upon a time,
three people sat on the stairs.
talking about serious stuff that could not be bottled up.
one was a girl who wrote blogs that contains a lot of info about her actions (only)
another was a girl who wrote blogs about thoughts
and lastly there was a girl who wrote short sweet random posts (for blogs)
and how did that conversation ended?
a load of burden lifted, but
unsolved.
the end....
(well, for now.)
*to be continued*
did not go for rollerblading
sobs.
and i want to go out, but cant.
sobs.
but at least i solved my detective game online
woots.
okay,
i have nothing to say
cant you believe i am reading this to nat as i type?
nope.
and now i am just getting random!
i feel like talking to people!
actually, i feel like helping people!
just to end off with hope!
psalms 33:18-19
But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in His unfailing love,
to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
today is a busy day
tuitions start, preparing for school time!
sighhhh!!!
well, i better start getting my sleeping habits right.
time to sleep early and get up early..
today is my mum's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER!
and we will be going out for dinner!
woots!
need to get her flowers!
argh i have not bought it yet!
but i did the card, she loved it! : DDD
i starting to feel like 2010 is just bad.
oh man, i need to get rid of negative thoughts.
i declare it will be good!
tang says i will start feeling left out as a leader,
starting to feel that way too.
oh well,
sacrifices.
ya, balancing time is another problem and thing i have to learn
that reminds me,
time.
dont really think i have the time to make cards for everyone...
oh no! but i do treasure birthdays!
guess i have to find another alternative.
psalms is beautiful!
psalm 32:7
You are my hiding place; You will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance
psalm 32:10
Many are the woes (troubles&problems) of the wicked, but the Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trust in Him
even if the world let me down,
the Lord shall always be there
even if in this world, i will lose all my friends,
the Lord shall always be the Best friend! : DDD
tuitions start, preparing for school time!
sighhhh!!!
well, i better start getting my sleeping habits right.
time to sleep early and get up early..
today is my mum's birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOTHER!
and we will be going out for dinner!
woots!
need to get her flowers!
argh i have not bought it yet!
but i did the card, she loved it! : DDD
i starting to feel like 2010 is just bad.
oh man, i need to get rid of negative thoughts.
i declare it will be good!
tang says i will start feeling left out as a leader,
starting to feel that way too.
oh well,
sacrifices.
ya, balancing time is another problem and thing i have to learn
that reminds me,
time.
dont really think i have the time to make cards for everyone...
oh no! but i do treasure birthdays!
guess i have to find another alternative.
psalms is beautiful!
psalm 32:7
You are my hiding place; You will protect me from trouble and surround me with songs of deliverance
psalm 32:10
Many are the woes (troubles&problems) of the wicked, but the Lord's unfailing love surrounds the man who trust in Him
even if the world let me down,
the Lord shall always be there
even if in this world, i will lose all my friends,
the Lord shall always be the Best friend! : DDD
Friday, January 01, 2010
my first post for the year 2010
firstly,
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!
hmm,
yesterday or i mean today's midnight service was alright
haha,
i settled my list of people whom i will be praying for (salvation) etc
and i got a few ideas on what theme this year will be;
managing time?! leadership?! etc
oh well,
still praying about it.
you know what
today i woke up and felt like a pile of junk
insecure, lonely stuff
the evil one has been filling my head with a lot of wrong thoughts
i know it aint true,
but it is tough trying to fight off.
the evil one just want to ruin my first day of 2010,
it aint happening!
this is my prayer today!
it helped me to fight off the negative thoughts,
you guys out there who feel lost,
should pray this too!
psalms 31
In You , O Lord, i have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame; deliver me in Your righteousness.
Turn Your ear to me, come quickly to my rescue; be my rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me.
Since You are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of Your name lead and guide me.
Free me from the trap that is set for me, for You are my refuge.
Into Your hands i commit my spirit; redeem me, O Lord, the God of truth.
....
I will be glad and rejoice in Your love, for You saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.
You have not handed me over to the enemy but have set my feet in a spacious place.
Be merciful to me, O Lord, for i am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief.
My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction (guilt), and my bones grow weak.
Because of all my enemies, i am the utter comtempt of my neighbours; I am a dread to my friends- those who see me on the street flee from me.
I am forgotten by them as though i were dead; i have become like broken pottery.
For i hear the slander of many; there is terror on every side; they conspire against me and plot to take my life.
But i trust in You, O Lord; i say, "You are my God."
My times are in Your hands; deliver me from My enemies and from those who pursue me.
Let Your face shine on Your servant; save me in Your unfailing love.
Let me not be put to shame, O Lord, for i have cried out to You; but let the wicked be put to shame and lie silent in the grave.
Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous.
How great is Your goodness, which You have stored up for those who fear You, which You bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in You.
In the shelter of Your presence You hide them from the intrigues of men; in Your dwelling You keep them safe from accusing tongues.
Praise be to the Lord, for He showed His wonderful love to me when i was in a besieged city.
In my alarm i said, " i am cut off from Your sight!" Yet You heard my cry for mercy when i called to You for help.
Love the Lord, all His saints! The Lord preserves the faithful, but the proud He pays back in full.
Be strong and take heart, all You who hope in the Lord.
Amen.
firstly,
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!
hmm,
yesterday or i mean today's midnight service was alright
haha,
i settled my list of people whom i will be praying for (salvation) etc
and i got a few ideas on what theme this year will be;
managing time?! leadership?! etc
oh well,
still praying about it.
you know what
today i woke up and felt like a pile of junk
insecure, lonely stuff
the evil one has been filling my head with a lot of wrong thoughts
i know it aint true,
but it is tough trying to fight off.
the evil one just want to ruin my first day of 2010,
it aint happening!
this is my prayer today!
it helped me to fight off the negative thoughts,
you guys out there who feel lost,
should pray this too!
psalms 31
In You , O Lord, i have taken refuge; let me never be put to shame; deliver me in Your righteousness.
Turn Your ear to me, come quickly to my rescue; be my rock of refuge, a strong fortress to save me.
Since You are my rock and my fortress, for the sake of Your name lead and guide me.
Free me from the trap that is set for me, for You are my refuge.
Into Your hands i commit my spirit; redeem me, O Lord, the God of truth.
....
I will be glad and rejoice in Your love, for You saw my affliction and knew the anguish of my soul.
You have not handed me over to the enemy but have set my feet in a spacious place.
Be merciful to me, O Lord, for i am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief.
My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction (guilt), and my bones grow weak.
Because of all my enemies, i am the utter comtempt of my neighbours; I am a dread to my friends- those who see me on the street flee from me.
I am forgotten by them as though i were dead; i have become like broken pottery.
For i hear the slander of many; there is terror on every side; they conspire against me and plot to take my life.
But i trust in You, O Lord; i say, "You are my God."
My times are in Your hands; deliver me from My enemies and from those who pursue me.
Let Your face shine on Your servant; save me in Your unfailing love.
Let me not be put to shame, O Lord, for i have cried out to You; but let the wicked be put to shame and lie silent in the grave.
Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous.
How great is Your goodness, which You have stored up for those who fear You, which You bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in You.
In the shelter of Your presence You hide them from the intrigues of men; in Your dwelling You keep them safe from accusing tongues.
Praise be to the Lord, for He showed His wonderful love to me when i was in a besieged city.
In my alarm i said, " i am cut off from Your sight!" Yet You heard my cry for mercy when i called to You for help.
Love the Lord, all His saints! The Lord preserves the faithful, but the proud He pays back in full.
Be strong and take heart, all You who hope in the Lord.
Amen.
date: 28March, 10.39pm
drinking: liangteh.
eating: nth.
mood: ARGH!.
listening: tv outside
reading: nth.
random: sec 3, term 2 week 2 day 1.