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Thursday, February 25, 2010

rejoice always

i improved on higher chinese paper!
woots!
may blessings start rolling in please...

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

totally saddened that i broke my record
after all As, all band 1, etc
i got a b4 for a maths
and seriously, i am totally shocked by it
i always wanted to be straight A for maths.
i am already bad in chinese, i cannot afford to drop in my maths grade!
what is going on?
what is going wrong?
what is wrong with my results?
what is wrong with my study methods?
sigh.

*bangs head to wall*

this is my prayer tonight:
PRAYER FOR A SONG IN THE NIGHT
Lord, Your word says that when we seek You, You will give us a song in the night. When i am going through a dark night of the soul, i pray You would enlighten my darkness with Your presence. In the face of the darkest situation in my life, I lift up songs of praise to You, knowing Your presence will inhabit them. Amen.

Monday, February 22, 2010

declare this:

Romans 8:37-39
" No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels or demons, neither the present or future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord"

Amen!

Ps: yesterday was a great sunday that i had not had for so long.
Praise God!
oh ya, cant wait for glee season to come back! : DDD

Sunday, February 21, 2010

wow, have not blog for a quite a long time.

well guess what hectic weekend is over!
hee hee, hectic but fun
and i have to say that i am indeed bless!

today,
210210
is my official first time leading worship in church myself
quite cool huh, 21o is like repeated
and the number 21 stands for 1st feb (my birthday)!
HAHAH! maybe i think too much, but quite symbolic.
and i have to say i enjoyed myself!
i mean it wasnt that bad.
the bible has this verse that says that though times now may be suffering, but the rewards are even better!
dont you think after a week of hectic preparations for worship,
when it is over, you feel that you have achieved something great?!
i really enjoyed leading worship,
my calling?!

so, fri i lead cell worship
i was quite amazed that i am not as scared as before
quite confident actually.
PRAISE GOD!

(ps: right now i am scractching my arm, got bitten by some insect, itchy ttm!)

then on sat, i was out for the whole day
like seriously,
WHOLE DAY!
and i was quite shocked that my parents allowed!

morning has worship prac, things were moving slow
and i was quite scared, dani "ditched" me.
hee hee!
but hey, i think i did quite a good job in leading the practice!
but can improve though.
cause we ended seriously late and i didnt have time to eat lunch
before leaders' training started
lesson was long, but the show is great!
i really think Patch Adams is a remarkable man!
full of passion and desire to be a doctor
i want to have the same passion as him, i want this kind of passion for God!

then i had to rush to meet janice at braddel before heading to jessica's faraway school
located at the other side of the country, temasek.
LOL!
took a long time getting there, but the performance was cool!
jessica worked hard!
: DDD
oh ya, it was my first time being an audience for someone else's performance
coolios!

then today, worship leading day
and then it was off to BK to eat
love rachel raja for the card
love nat for the hug
love gwen for putting down the phone to hug
love jan for listening ear
love zy for going home with me ( well not all the way though)
appreciate fatty benny for the lecture
appreciate quek for running back home to get my stuff
appreciate the worship team for playing so awesomely well
appreciate everyone who encouraged and prayed for me before worship
etc etc etc

right now, i am just doing my work and bored of it too.
i dont have that much work as i expected!
teehee!

alright, another week of school!
guess what, this wed, rachel, nat n jan coming over, gwen too? : DDD

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Psalms 78:38
" yet He was merciful; He forgave their iniquities and did not destroy them. Time after time He restrained His anger and did not stir up His full wrath"

if i was only as calm and as forgiving as God...

ya,
i realised that i can give advises to people
but cant apply it to myself

guess what failed chinese compo!
and i actually passed, but thanks to all the wrong words.
i failed
BY ONE MARK!
how "great" is that...
hmph

and right now,
i feel worried
how am i gonna lead worship for tomorrow and sunday if my attitude aint right
i need to set things right
need a refreshing start.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

yup,
i spent chinese new year in malaysia!
it was truely an awesome time

first day-sat
was caught in traffic jam for 2hours,
wait not one jam but two jams! madness!
it took us nearly 6 hours just to get to our destination.
twice the actual time needed.
watched movies,
did a bit of physics revision,
and had dinner with the entire mother's side of the family.
"tuan yuan fan" in chinese.
steamboat was great!

second day-sun
oh it was chinese new year! and i woke up late.
had to rush with everything!
guess what, everyone woke up late as well!
so ya, like usual,
visit relatives,
get angbaos,
eat a lot!
i was totally satisfied with my bagua! plus shandy!
then whole family ate at uncle's house
followed by a night movie- we watched percy jackson and the lightening thief.
totaly good show! : D
i got quite freak out in the front part and held my cousin's hand so tightly
got super excited till i started bouncing on the chair with every impact.
ya, people, dont watch movies with me! : DDD

third day- mon
it was the second day of chinese new year
aka my chinese birthday!
*hint*
so ya, woke up late again, but mostly
did not really have much going on today.
watched 2 movies in the house,
catch up with devotion,
then accompanied my cousin, and my cousin's cousin to go shopping
at the shopping centre, almost all the shops were close, how to shop
ended up, i bought something, while they came back empty handed.
oh yes, we ate sushi too! HAHAHHA!

then off to my aunt's house for another family dinner
she is an awesome cook!
the 4 of us, huisan, sieling,jie hao and myself slacked at huisan's room
while the rest were playing with fire crackers and stuff downstairs.
oh well, skip the detais,
then we went to funfair! HAHAH!
i seriously stink at all the booths.
oh well, came back and chat with my cousin till 1am.
was waiting for uncle to pick her up.
then
TADAA!
here i am in singapore.

forth day- tues
yup, left the house early in the morning.
no jam at all.
sobs.

as i come back to singapore, i just feel all the responsibities loaded on my shoulders again.
so much things to do,
so litte time.

yup,
growth is struggle.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Group picture for Crossings 2! : DDD
Thanks Janice and Zhang Yi for coming to support too!
Love you guys ttm!


Today's Devotion:
Psalms 71 (2 things to note):

1. praying for your future
In this psalm, prayer for our future has been prayer like twice
a prayer of thanksgiving when you were an infant
a prayer of joy as a teenager
a prayer of declaration when you become old

Psalms 71: 5-6
" For You have been my hope, O Soverign Lord, my confidence since my youth. From birth I have relied on You; You brought me forth from my mother's womb. I will ever praise You."

Psalms 71:17-18
" Since my youth, O God, You have taught me, and to this day i declare Your marvelous deeds. Even when I am old and gray, do not forsake me, O God, till i declare Your power to the next generation, Your might to all who are to come."

Not only does it mention us, but our future generations as well.
Isnt it good to keep your future under the guidance of the Lord.
Isnt it good to keep your future generation under the protection of a blessing?
that they may never fall into evil?

Do not look down on prayer
for your future and for your children.
The strength of words are remarkable!
especially for prayer
(but it can be dangerous- do not curse)

2. Struggles aint bad
Psalms 71: 20-21
"Though You have made me see troubles, many and bitter, You will restore my life again; form the depths of the earth You will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again."

Today during cca, mrs gurong said this
"Growing is struggle"
What she meant is that, when we want to grow (spiritually, morally, physically etc)
we can only do that when we face troubles,
when we are tested by challenges God put in our lives.

Everyday,
we learn something new( refering to good)
and challenges God place in our lives are just tests that show us whether or not we truely learn something.
example: lets say for running
we want to be a good runner, therefore we train everyday
but what determines whether we truely obtain that title of being a good runner?
a competition! whether we do well or not.

Joy said to me this before,
"Difficulties are like opportunities in workclothes"
we overcome them not by sitting down and waiting for something to happen
but we overcome them by facing them
yes, the process in tough, but the reward is truely sweet.
no pain; no gain.

think about this,
what are some of the rewards we will receive when overcoming a challenge?
Overcoming challenges= YOU! becoming a stronger and wiser person!
thus, problems are nothing to mourn about,
but something to give thanks!

Sing Praise at all times!
Cause God does things for a purpose.

Monday, February 08, 2010

Romans 2: 1-16

That was what i read during my devotion today
and i guess what the bible says is true
i guess i am being judgemental nowadays
unknowingly, i comment on things which i barely have any information about

they bible says that why do we judge the speck in our neighbour's eye when we cant even judge the plank in ours?!

do you know when we judge others,
we are "cursing" ourself in a sense;
"...for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgement do the same things"
Romans 2:1b

i complain about someone who lies,
but i do lie.
i complain about someone who aint loyal,
but i aint loyal times too.

in the end,
it is not us who will be judges, but God Himself!
as a fair God,
He will " give to each person according to what he has done."
Romans 2: 6
Thus, why waste your own time seeing faults of others, when you can use that precious time to change our own bad habits?!

note:
doesnt mean you are a christian,
means you are spared from the judgement time.
everyone will be judged
"For God does not show favouritism" verse 11

but
why is it so difficult to see our own faults?
why are we blind to our own actions and feelings.
i wish i can have a mirror that reflects my character
i want to know how i can change/ improve.

this is what we should do:
we should follow the Lord's commandments.
not know it, but DO IT!
"For it is not those who hear the law who are righteous in God's sight, but it is those who obey the law who will be declared righteous." verse 13

Amen! : DDD

Sunday, February 07, 2010

2 Chronicles 20 talks about King Jehoshaphat

one day, all the enemies decided to "gang up" against the kingdom in which King Jehoshaphat ruled. Being fearful about the numbers of the enemy, the king seeked counsel from the Lord. and this is what the Lord said,
verse 15 "...Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's.."

On the day of the battle, King Jehoshaphat and his small army were by far defintely outnumbered.
but they stood firm, and Kind Jehoshaphat ordered the "worship team" to stand in front of the army and lead the whole "congregation" into a time of praise.
imagine this scene, a small army against empires! and this small army aint afraid, they dont run but sing praises to God!

And guess what God did?!
He confused the enemies, and they started killing one another.
soon, all the enemies died.
imagine this again, you in the army watching your enemies killing one another and all you have to do is sing praises.

In life,
we do not usually have physical war,but spiritual and emotional war.
daily, we are constantly battling in our heart against the enemy.
we battle not to sin, to choose correctly etc.
as we fight, remember that God is always there and He is fighting along our side.
keep on rejoicing despite the troubles faced.
as
" ...weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning" psalms 30:5

problems,
if taken in the right attitude
can most probably be known as blessings in disguise.
imagine what we can gain just by conquering the problem?
yes, they are truely, treasures in the darkness.

the way to conquering problems:

Faith is something we need
Obedience to listen to God's instructions
Rejoice always
Give God a chance, rely on Him
"I" does not exist, God blessed us with friends and family to pray together, build each other up
Voice out truthfully ( have good relational and functional boundaries)
Everyday, pray for deliverance

the spells- forgive.
get it?! : )))

Saturday, February 06, 2010

Yo, i am feeling utter confused right now
Only crossings can make me happy, but sadly it is over! i can still remember the feeling of being
Under the spotlight. sweetness : D a cool experience

Lead cell yesterday
Exciting n cool experience
Feeling was so, as isnt it great to be able to lead people, to help them understand stuff?
Totally enjoyed leading and will look forward to the next one!

Well, good things dont always last
I, as always, face another new problem once something is solve
That kinda stinks right.
How i wish i am able to say what i want anytime without
Offending people
U will truely understand the situation then
To you, it may be small, but it is big for me.

Argh!

God, why cant you just take away the oversensitive part of me
Over thinking
Over analysing
Day might been better
-
But you created me just the way i am, i should love myself
You created me beautifully and wonderfully made
Except, why cant i feel that way

(actually, i already stated the "trigger event", you just have to read it from top to bottom again)
____________________________________

my prayer:
Lord! i dont know what is going on with me. who is wrong, who is right. honestly speaking, i am deeply hurt by things going on around me. tiny actions, which seem insignificant to many, but really, it is like a knife ripping my heart out. they might be unaware, but my heart aches each time, each second. i am in a fork road, where i stand between two lanes, two roads. worst of all, there is no sign post (direction), no clear sign. the people whom i care the most vanishes, am i am left to struggle alone. life me up o Lord, and heatrmy cries. May Romans 1:12 be fulfilled and may joy comes in the daylight!

Wednesday, February 03, 2010

i am really squeezing time right now to blog.
what is happening now.
CROSSING 2!

today spend entire day at arts house, "rehearsing"
ya, we were just slacking at the back stage.
i have not even got the chance to practice anything.
well, a lot of bonding time, picture timing and homeworking!
teehee!
but tomorrow shall be a hectic day.
rehearsal, real one, starts and everyone is gonna sweat to the max!
despite freezing aircon.
jan and zy are coming to watch! they MUST BE PUNCTUAL
and i hope they rememeber to bring the tickets *hint*
(post the photos soon)

and went to church for first cell discussion.
it was fun and funny! hahaha!
maybe being a leader aint that bad... hmmm...

anyway,
for my birthday.
well on sunday.
nat, gwen, jan, rachel, zy, abel, jon leong, chris chew and yangyi brought me around.
started off with dropping one stop at amk for fun.
then went to city hall.
ate at pizza hut and played!
then went to esplanade to play somemore!
gonna post the 2 videos of chrischew and abel really soon.
its gonna be a hit!
HAHAHAHAHHA!
my aim: 1 million viewers

oh yes, and my awesome friends gave me a super duper beautiful board full of cards, plus zy gave me bag and rest arh...well, they waiting for friday.
got delivered a present on my actual birthday too!
woots!

most importantly, i passed my chinese test!
ya, cant u believe it?
a pass!
praise GOD!
i can just cry!

love should not be given out of a condition but out of freewill

Monday, February 01, 2010



have to make this quick
today is my birthday woots!
love all my friend to the max,
especially those on the top! : DDD
hahaha!
and yes, school friends too etc etc etc
.
omg! i need to off the com! and i have not said what i have done.
leave that story for another day okay? : DDD

hahah!
cant u believe it!
i am 15!!!!