chinese mock paper is over! YEAH!
4 hours passed by real quick! HAHA!
but it was uncomfortable having to blow my nose and cough every 20 min?!
(i think the class is super dusty)

but then, one day down,
few more days to go.
and extra lessons are only maths and science. sigh
so unbalance.
i think after this week my head will be rattling with mathematical formulas and science terms

got M&S as a gift yesterday!
but i cant eat it...
having soar throat. sigh.

anyway, God postponed the storm...
i think.

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELISSA HO!

AN UPDATE:

school holidays have started for the majority,
but for the minority (sec 3 and sec 4)
we shall spend an entire week in school learning maths n science and science and maths...

report books are back
and i am pleased that there's improvements!
(despite a few not-so-good-results)
then again, i fulfilled my promise!
but now, have to discuss with parents on how i can further improve...
YUP, SACRIFICES is what they meant.

didnt win anything from SHELL
and thus i am questioning God why He brought me to this competition.
guess He is teaching me to learn that winning isnt everything
its the process.
and i dare say i enjoyed the process a lot.

stayed in changi chalet from thurs to fri.
awesome time!
and definitely an awesome chalet!
air con is freezing cold (good!)
oh and i dont mind leaving in that chalet forever! HAHAHA!
there was this point in time i felt like a drunkard,
lying down on a sofa, too lazy to move, with shandy on the table....
anyway, i ate a lot! and this resulted to me having a
MANLY VOICE (again)....
sigh.
oh well, slept late, and woke up early.
but i really enjoyed this chalet, though it wasnt a youth kind of gathering...
spending time with adults and children aint that bad..

watched Shrek yesterday!
and i cried during the last part.
after so long, i finally cried in the movie.
i thought i was losing my emotional self.
i really admire Shrek,
he didnt wish for Fiona to love him, but for the safety of everyone she cared for.
he didnt ask Fiona to kiss him so as to save himself, but thank her for giving him more than enough.
he didnt regret this problem and pushed the blame to others but was grateful for it as he learnt a very important lesson
AWESOME SHOW!

now, i am sick
(great...)
guess all the soft drinks and junk food has caused me to catch the sickness bug.
pray that i will get better BY TOMORROW!

oh ya,
i should start memorising my chinese compo.
chinese test on MONDAY!

but before that i shall conclude this post with a phrase i came up with during my devotion yesterday:
God did not say follow Him and be trouble-less, but follow Him and be victorious!

jubilate was great! : DDD
at least my money didnt go to a waste.
going to jessica's house for awesome feasting now......!
week 10 is dedicated to competition.

oh and btw, i find glenn's teaching super good!

Things i am looking forward to:
1. jubilate
2. shir in a dress
3. taking pictures with my awesome class 3 diligence
4.end term 2 so that i can have holidays
5.movie marathon (prays*)
6.being able to say,
I CONQUERED 2010!

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hmm...i think i plan a lot
well, i already planned my proposal, wedding etc.
(but i havent gone so far to plan how i will die, unlike some ppl...heehee)
but then again,
humans can plan, but God's will determines all!

i realised that i am quite influencing
and i am proud of it
(when people pick up my good points)
i feel super joyful when i managed to change/ plant seeds into people's lives.
i feel super joyful when people quotes me to help them in their lives
i feel super joyful when people hugs me and say "thanks, that really helped a lot"
i feel super joyful when i know that through my leading (in whatsoever ways) i helped people realised something
i feel super joyful when i bless others.
thus, i think i have the gift of blessing : DDD

i conquered napfa today!
and yeah! i got my full marks!( plus cramp muscles on my calves)
oh well, can only blame myself from tip-ping toe just to drink water.
now the muscles are sore.
poor things.

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i'm back to positive mood.
and thats good!
thanks to everyone who is constantly there to support me.
you guys mean the world to me : DDD

ya, i am living in the 9th week of term 2!
after all that i have gone through in week 8
its time for me to wake up and say
"Be happy Lydia"

thanks to my friends in school who constantly remind me to have joy
i managed to pull myself together
however, ya,
i guess the lack of sleep cause serious damage to my emotions
grouchy?!

anyway, today i didnt go to school
and finally after so long i can sleep in!
13-14 hours of sleep!
i woke up today feeling so much more refresh, energetic, and ready
and what can be more great than beginning the day with the Word of God?!

Proverbs 15:30
"A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones."

Straight away God reminds me to be happy, to be cheerful
not only will i be joyful innerly, but i will be healthy as well!
i know tough times are just temporary
and as long as i persevere through,
i can make it!
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now after declaring that,
i think i have a clearer mindset, and a more-ready mindset to face certain issues

1. time management
i have no idea how my sec 3 life became so much more busier!
i think it is because i have taken to many responsibilities.
but then again, how is it that people can cope and i cant?
thus, i have issues with time management, and i seriously have to look through my schedule and cut down on certain stuff.

2. (level up)
actually after talks with my friends about this i was about to say yes and take on the challenge
but just when i open my msn just now
one of my close friend actually said smth that makes me stop and ponder about taking on this challenge
oh man, i really need to talk to my parents about it.
i really need God to show me a sign, to clarify all my doubts and fears.
GOD! SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT?!

3. the boat theory
yup, in just a few weeks time the challenge that will put so many things of mine to the test is going to start
i really dont know what the outcome is
but i hope that after this storm, the boat will come out stronger than before.
*prays*
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oh well, that is basically what i will say for now
time to get back to the studies
and work!
dont worry,
I WILL BE HAPPY! : DDD
cause
the joy of the Lord is my strength!

cant believe it that term 2 is going to end,
and before you know it june holidays will end too
then,
O LEVEL CHINESE!

oh gosh, why is time passing so quickly?!
i mean, i dont mind those hectic stress weeks to pass super fast,
but super joyful ones?!
time seems to limited...really!

so today,
i lead worship
and i overshot time by a lot!
usually worship last for 30-40 min,
mine lasted for 1hour and 10min.
woops!
but what jon tang said is true,
when you are in the presence of God, time does pass by super quickly.

anyway, i am glad God forgave me and gave me the strength to go through week 8
with physics and a maths tests
projects that are going to be due
competition for science
(yes, i got in and tomorrow is the presentation to the science centre judges)
plus, having the need to prepare cell materials and worship
time was constraint! it passed by really fast! i was really stressed up!
but,
i think it is such a joy now to think about all the work i have done and congratulate myself for making through the tough week!
i didnt give up!
(though i had a lot of negative emotions roaring inside of me!)
i did it! i conquered week 8!
and now all i have left is week 9 and 10.

hmm...this week is going to be good i hope
nothing much, except for dreaded chinese presentation and ss test
besides that, nth much.
oh yes! jubilate this friday, gonna see shirley (PORK) in a dress : DDD
(HOPE SHIRLEY SEES THAT!)

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alright, right now i have to do my chinese project!
SIGH!
I CAN DO IT! : DDD
JIA YOU LYDIA!

the ultimate test is going to begin soon

i cant really comment anything on our friendship now
as there is nothing to shake it yet.

i am not asking for problems, but
like a boat that needs a storm to see whether it sinks or floats
i need a challenge to see if this friendship is really lasting/ genuine

we both know that it will come soon,
REAL SOON
and right now it is like we are sitting ducks waiting to be shot
but who knows (maybe we are ready?)

i am really anticipating for the results,
will the boat sink or float?!
will it come out of the storm damaged or a stronger ship?!
(an upgrade?)

this is really the test
and personally,
i pray that we will be ready for it

*sorry to the emotional post above, had to say my thoughts...*
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anyway!
got into the syf science competition-SHELL
okay, i know it is an honour, but right now i think both boyu and my group are lazy to do so..
but then again,
we will do out best!

physics test was annoying
but i should not comment much
all i shall say was that after the test,
people mourn
people cry
people had sad eyes
what do you think happened?!

i also feel that i need a purpose in life right now
i used to be filled with it
but currently, i am just empty
i guess my life has been revolving around meeting people's expectations of me
and...
i dont enjoy it
i think around people i can put up a smile,
but ya, no one can read my heart! my real emotions..
(except GOD!) : DDD

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before ending, i shall say this:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHANGYI!

i totally enjoyed sec 3 camp!
it was really insightful and many fabulous and eyes opening things happened.

one of most memorable thing i did was accomplishing the challenge pole!
it is an element where you have to climb to a board that is 3-4 storey(s) high
via a pole with "steps"
then, at the board you have to get up without any HAND SUPPORT
then there is this trapezz like bar dangling in the air,
and you have to jump from the board to catch the bar.
(of course i was wearing a harness)
like the 'leap of faith'.

i really wanted to attempt this challenge since the beginning of camp,
as i had tried the other high elements, rock climbing, bridge etc, before
during pri 5 camp.
thus, the challenge pole offered me a new challenge
climbing the pole was not the challenge,
getting up the board and jumping is.

i burnt/ scorched my hand by touching the metal piece on the top to push myself to stand on the board.
thus, i had to use the wooden part of the pole instead, making everything more difficult.
it is not easy to look down and keep still so that the pole wont rock.
i mean, it is like you are commiting suicide
(just that you arent)
the instructors at the bottom were like," once you are ready, say that you are 'jumping' and JUMP"
oh yes, "look at the bar too and enjoy the scenery"

there wasnt any scenery!
jump trees, i couldnt even see the sea -_-lll
thus it was only me and the bar, looking down would be a bad choice,
you will shake.
i remembered that i took many deep breaths and had to wipe the sweat from my hands hundreds of time (exaggerating of course)

AND I JUMPED!
and i managed to touch the bar and held it for a few short seconds before falling.
" oh and i screamed falling instead of jumping"....
it was really a success and it wasnt that scary after all.
it truely tested my courage/ guts

its just like life, sometimes we just have to take the step and jump
to take initiative, whats that?!
it is to have many ideas and to take actions to try.
failure doesnt exist,
because as long as you try
whether you reach the bar or not, you are an absolute champion!

through this camp, i saw unity too!
unity among classmates and cohort.
from coming together to perform to singing at the canteen like mad people!
ST NICH GIRLS ARE HIGH!
it is really cool when the entire school have a shared vision.

another thing that was remarkable was the tire low element
where we had to carry our friends and move everyone to the other side of the tire via the hole in the middle.
it taught me that humans are like ants.
as individuals we cant really move stuff, but as a group of (small people) we can shift mountains!

and then there were my 2 insightful instructors,
Ada and Gareth.
Ada really inspired me in christianity sense.
i remember she being the belayer and i was her anchor.
she was speaking in tongues when belaying
and i was also amazed at how she could give glory to God so easily without fear.
when i went home today, i looked at her blog/ facebook and i could really tell she is Crazy about Jesus!
i think she was God-sent to inspire me of the daily usages of prayer!
and even speaking in tongues!

yup, many more things were learnt, those were just the few great ones!
and of course, there is the camp experience;
few minutes to bathe
washing of dishes
no air con to sleep
sleeping in sweat
in the hot sun( enjoying my tan)
etc!

i think after A levels i wanna be an instructor for a camp once!
: DDD
TEEHEE, it will be an awesome experience.

i think 3 diligence has really got to know each other quite well after this camp!
and thus, i feel that i should end off with the 3 diligence cheer!

oh my gosh,
we think that ms chua is super hot!
3D i swear,
has awesome people eveywhere!
love, care, stop and stare,
for our friendships' always there
we may fall, we may cry,
but we will make sure we will try
we are the D to the I to the
"oh nevermind"
we're DILIGENCE!

week 7
mon- no school
set a record on msn!

tues- school, class tee, animal farm!
(back home late)
(cant use com)

wed-fri:
SEC 3 CAMP!

so will not be posting anything for a week?!

BUT YA!
i am excited!

and if jan is reading this,
i am still practising "gift of a friend" on guitar ; DDD

justin bieber,
listen to his songs once, and you will find it ordinary
but after re-listening to it over and over again,
it is actually catchy.
not bad for a boy his age.

hmm...
life is kinda tough right now.
expectations and stuff.
it is not really a good feeling that you are living this life to please others.
i mean, IT IS YOUR LIFE.
arent you suppose to archieve something that you can be proud of.
i dont know,
doing work right now seems to be for one reason,
expectations.
i am losing the meaning of sch life,
and teenage life is becoming depriving.
SIGHHH....

anyway,
week 7 is here!
and i pray that is would be a good week.
well that is like a 80% chance that is would indeed be a good week.
why?
mon no school, tues school but watching animal farm with the drama peeps!
wed, thurs and fri is SEC 3 CAMP!
woots!
i really cant wait,
but as you all know, good times pass fast,REAL FAST
thus,
shall really treasure this week with all my heart! : DDD