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Monday, October 26, 2009

if only you would understand
if only they could understand
if only i can speak freely
if only i can express stuff without having a need to control
if only i can truely be genuine
if only what other people think about my life can be true
if only i can
if only...

today wasnt the best day (optimistic)
today was the worst day of my life (pessismistic)
pick one.

i dont seem to see why i cannot
why everything have walls
i dont seem to see why i have to be enclose in a cage all the time
to be at the "safety zone" when you are not even there to guard the place
(there is not diff)
i dont seem to see why i cannot take a step out
espcially when it is free time
why else do you want me to do...

sanguine, a person who exaggerates (weakness)
i am a sanguine
therefore, i need to control all the time

i spend hours thinking of you
i spend hours watching you
i spend hours making things for you
i spend hours crying for you
and what do i get back?!
second place.
consolation prize
certificate of participation.
thanks.

hopefully tmr will be a brighter day.