<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/36835148?origin\x3dhttp://teensdreamslydia.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

entries
profile
tagboard
affiliates
archieves
layout
Saturday, February 06, 2010

Yo, i am feeling utter confused right now
Only crossings can make me happy, but sadly it is over! i can still remember the feeling of being
Under the spotlight. sweetness : D a cool experience

Lead cell yesterday
Exciting n cool experience
Feeling was so, as isnt it great to be able to lead people, to help them understand stuff?
Totally enjoyed leading and will look forward to the next one!

Well, good things dont always last
I, as always, face another new problem once something is solve
That kinda stinks right.
How i wish i am able to say what i want anytime without
Offending people
U will truely understand the situation then
To you, it may be small, but it is big for me.

Argh!

God, why cant you just take away the oversensitive part of me
Over thinking
Over analysing
Day might been better
-
But you created me just the way i am, i should love myself
You created me beautifully and wonderfully made
Except, why cant i feel that way

(actually, i already stated the "trigger event", you just have to read it from top to bottom again)
____________________________________

my prayer:
Lord! i dont know what is going on with me. who is wrong, who is right. honestly speaking, i am deeply hurt by things going on around me. tiny actions, which seem insignificant to many, but really, it is like a knife ripping my heart out. they might be unaware, but my heart aches each time, each second. i am in a fork road, where i stand between two lanes, two roads. worst of all, there is no sign post (direction), no clear sign. the people whom i care the most vanishes, am i am left to struggle alone. life me up o Lord, and heatrmy cries. May Romans 1:12 be fulfilled and may joy comes in the daylight!