<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/36835148?origin\x3dhttp://teensdreamslydia.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>

entries
profile
tagboard
affiliates
archieves
layout
Monday, January 11, 2010

i just have to blog again now.
to get things off my mind.

i dont know why, i have never been worried for a person so much before
till linking to life and death
why is my brain so complex.
i missed just by 6min!
and so many things can rush into my brain
no answering of calls, texts etc
aint you at all....
i really dont know what is going on.
and i really want to know.
ease the fear and anxiousness please
.
i cant take it,
my heart is like pumping super duper fast.
like i cant stop staring at my cell phone
hence, putting it to outdoor mode.
may the ringtone just ring!!!!

i try to ease everything but filling my head with work
maths, chinese. tough stuff
aint working!
what is this?
is God trying to tell me something.
or is He trying to show me something..
i dont know.
sometimes, i just wish answers will come as quick as the speed of light

i know, maybe i am just being plain stupid.
but let me ask you this.
why wasnt i worried about something like that as much before?
why is this the first
give me the answer for that please!
called loui, and talked to rachel.
but still,
ARGH!

i am only left to waiting.
i will not miss the call again.
and whatever you do,
dont do the jump or anything stupid.

(a post to relief myself)