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2 done by Lydia (me), 1 by ying ying
Poem #1
Title: unable to draw- Lydia
Done on: 28 Sept 09
At: 11.3oam
Scibbling with frustration
tearing the papers with agony
crumpling the pieces with anger
screaming to myself, "why cant i draw?"
every line, every curve
are cancelled out with black ink
visible holes in the paper
compared to art, no link
unable to draw
not even a perfect smile
unable to apply colours
and everything seems dull
high expectations to meet
the art teacher has for me
but failing it currently
most like getting only a D
i draw a rainbow
its outline only
but the lines are not sastifactory
and i cancel everything out
once again the picture is lonely
why cant i draw?
i need to reflect on that
too much stress, pressure
or something much more than that
maybe i am drawing not for myself
not for pleasure or beauty
i am drawing by force
trying to design something pretty
i need to draw
i want to draw
i desire to draw
i yearn to draw
keep up your faith girl
temporary brain block now
creativity will come back
and soon everyone will go WOW!
do not worry
do not live in fury
you can draw, you can sketch
be patient
and abilities will come back
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Poem #2
Title: my prayer- Lydia
Done on: 28 Sept 09
At: 12.47 pm
Dear Lord
i pray
that You will hear my prayer
despite my constant doubting heart
Lord, i am going through a tough time
and in fear right now
i am shivering without an umbrella
under the cold dark storm
i tried by myself
to find my way back home
but i am lost
in the wilderness alone
i do not see
anyone nearby
no one offers the help i need
i am in fear
i try to act tough
standing tall and proud
but Lord i know how bad a liar i am
my heart is crumbling
i am failing
and my faith is dying
my heart cannot find
anything to breathe on
Time is ticking
gone every second
no time is left
sleepless nights
Lord, i realise my mistake
i cannot do it by my strength
Lord, rescue me
and deliver me from this difficulties
Give me the strength and motivation
help me to persevere on
may Your grace shine upon me
help me to finish this race, Lord
remind me of Your constant love
the blessings You gave since i was born
may i not fall into the enemies' hands
but trample on them
carry me please
out of this raging waves
give me shelter in Your hands
i know, i will find peace there
i pray for favour
from You and from people
miracles do happen
if i have faith like a mustard seed
time is lacking
but God you do the impossible
increasing my blessings
knowledge and wisdom
i entrust my burdens to you
at the feet of the cross
transform them into wonders
this i pray with faith
hear my cry Lord
me, a sinner
have mercy on me
cause i know i do not deserve this
i commit whatever i have prayed
knowing you forever care and love
oh, compassionate Father, this i pray
Amen.
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Poem #3
Title: my refuge- ying ying
Done on: 28 Sept 09
At: 1pm
The storms of this world hit my heart
my heart
held together by faith, hope, love
Lord, You hold Your hand out
faithfully
i look around
tears, pain, they crumble
a hundred fall on my left
thousands fall on my right
but Lord,
i declare it'll not touch me
You hold me now
you life me now on eagle's wings
joy.
i experience
jumping up, out of reach
from the grasp of the tribulation in this world
" as His glory appears,
like the light of the sun,
age to age He shines,
oh, look to the sky,
hear the angels cry,
singing holy is the Lord"
When my faith fails,
i look to Yours, Jesus
You speak to me
words of Your love
hope renews and burns
Omnipresent
if anyone were to write about Your love
i'll never imagine how long it'll go
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when all the exams comes,
poetry mood pops up!
exams next week.
FIGHTING!
date: 28March, 10.39pm
drinking: liangteh.
eating: nth.
mood: ARGH!.
listening: tv outside
reading: nth.
random: sec 3, term 2 week 2 day 1.