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Saturday, July 18, 2009

i really hope my sadness it over
i feel so pathetic
losing to SADNESS!

anyway,
i think sad mood is going away soon
after a big tear shedding yesterday night
i realise that my parents wont be there for my confirmation
the whole day, i held my tears, CONTROL!
then, the sudden thought just broke everything
and i burst into uncontrol-able tears
rainning tears.
rain clouds= my eyes

anyway, i cannot believe my mum had to hear me crying over the phone
i fill super bad cause of that
i mean. she is overseas and she apologise like mad
but argh!
i need to be a more understanding child,
not everything is about me
my dad and mum deserve a break as well
HAHA! oh worst,
my dad saw me crying over the phone and was like
" what is the problem?!"
i just quickly pass the phone to my bro and ran to my room
and yes, to cry down there

but tears shedding was what i needed
i know i cannot store everything in my heart forever
i will crack!
anyway, i will still have my friends supporting me
better than nth
but i also realise what meant to me the most was my family
HAHA!
it is alright, i can live! i can video the whole thing
however, what i am afraid of right now is that
i will cry in the confirmation itself.

i am such a cry baby...