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Friday, January 30, 2009

disappointed
that is one word i can use to describe myself now

disappointed
in literature test
disappointed
that i failed my chinese letter writing
disppointed
that i have nothing plan for my birthday
disappointed
that i disappoint a friend
disappointed
that i cannot communicate properly

i dont want to be emo
no, and i am not going to be
i am just disappointed
i cannot stand the feeling of failure
i just cannot!

yes, in life there are still good things
like how i managed to study for 11h yesterday
how i can amazingly pass my chinese composition test
how great, that my ex classmates gave me beautiful cards and presents

i am so sorry for focusing more on the negative side
i dont want to put all my disappointment as a burden to my friends
even if you are suppose to share your load and bla bla bla
nah...i cannot stand to see them struggle to find a solution.......

i just gonna be silent
and smile all i can

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