Teens Dreams

2011-04-09T21:03:00.003+08:00

heehee! and term 1 is over! one word to describe the term:
BLESSED

God has been sooo sooo amazing...
even with the examination results...

btw, im currently holidaying in singapore :)
SURPRISE WAS A SUCCESS! :)

(sorry for the short post!)

2011-03-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

wow, i have not blogged for a long long long time.
it has been more than 1 month since the beginning of school
and i can say,
GOD HAS BEEN MARVELOUS OVER HERE!

yup, first week of school was really hard
i was like sobbing, crying and everything...
i just lost myself,
i became weak and lonely.

skype wasnt working, i couldnt talk to people
and soooo many problems cropped up
i was just so frightened

a 16 year old in a brand new world,
its quite frightening to be honest

because of my emo-ness, i also fell sick
stomach flu or something like...
because of my grieving, i produced to much acid in my stomach,
didnt eat much too
resulting in stomach pains

but as days passed, things are getting better
im not so stressed anymore
i overcame the tough days......i will still overcome the tough days

i am starting to see why God brought me here.
you know there are things i cant learn in singapore you know...
like, over here,
i learn how to rely SOLELY on GOD!
in singapore, i know sooo many people, i am in my comfort zone, i dont really rely on God much even though i do my devotion, pray everyday...
but when God brought me here, i am like alone
i know no one.
i am in a boarding house, not even staying with my aunt.
yup, alone...in a new country....
and the only person i can rely on is GOD!

AND GOD HAS NEVER FAILED ME!
through all my devotions, He has spoken to me constantly
and He has been guiding my everyday, my every step

currently, exams are in 2 weeks time,
assignments to hand up on monday

seems tough, but no...
GOD WILL LEAD ME! HE WILL SHOW ME THE WAY!

i believe i am growing and i will grow more!!!

internet is about to disconnection, better post this now!

God bless singapore :)

2011-02-03T15:14:00.002+08:00

how has life been?!

i started school in australia (only this week)
had mood swings...
but im feeling better now...

i changed subject from economy to maths C
and now, i am doing the suicidal 6!
(eng, maths b, mathsc, bio, chem, physics)
BUT I BELIEVE I CAN SCORE ON THEM!

i am really thankful for all those who have been encouraging me and emailing me and praying for me.
especially, nat, rachel, ben, family! thanks so much!

if you are reading this,
do keep on praying for me
i really need God's strength to pull me through this year!

woohoo!
alright, i need to study!

1 cor 16:13-14
" be on your guard, stand firm in the faith, be men of courage, be strong. do everything with love..."

2011-01-21T21:30:00.002+08:00

australia has been alright,
but im still missing singapore.

i really thank God for my friends who keep on talking to me on msn, skype, oovoo, facebook etc.
oh and blogs too!
i thank God for their prayers etc!

i havent been doing much here
got loads of time to use facebook.
but i did visit my school, got uniform which i look not so good in,
i went to visit my great aunt and uncle
oh and i did went to shopping centre already, didnt buy anything though...

i still miss singapore.
and i just realise something,
my sweet 16 is coming.
i dont think im celebrating it with anyone...sigh : (

i do miss singapore
i should be in cell now

2011-01-18T14:35:00.002+08:00

i am in australia now.

yea, its my first day on this "migration" thing.
okay, im adapting..quite well...
(mostly spent my time on the come, still counted?)

seriously, times passes too fast
i still remember last year i said one year later to australia, then it was 6 months, 3 months, 3 weeks, then tomorrow then today and now IAMHERE.

i really have no idea what to expect here.
not sure what God has installed for me
but yea...trust in the Lord always.
: )
keep the smiles up lydia!

school has been postponed by a week.
was actually quite annoyed, could have delayed the flight by another week,
but what mum said is true, i will still feel the same-sad- the following week
sigh.

i am so thankful to all those who came down to send me off...the 30 + of you.
i wont forget! : )
and thank you to my girls for all the lovely innovative presents
yes, it is with my in australia!
it will be reminding me of you!

hmm...
currently i have 2 weeks to myself.
guess i will be doing a lot of thinking after the girl talk with mum in e plane.
i have a lot of thinking to do.
and im still not sure of what to do.
i dont want to hurt anyone.
but...
mum challenged me.

i need to in a sense,
challenge her back!
right?
someone gives you a challenge,
challenge her back!
: ) *im not being revengeful, just wanna prove it to her!)
*positive*

but putting words acorss is a tough thing.
sigh

anyway,
just felt like saying this
love you nat tan!

2011-01-16T21:00:00.001+08:00

God has given me soooo many beautiful memories of Singapore.
and tomorrow, im going to leave my beloved country to go to Australia.
Yup, i am going to a foreign land
However, God has protected me sooo far,
Wouldnt He do the same in Australia!

I HAVE FAITH IN GOD!

thank you sooo much to all those who have made an impact in my life!
(especially my my favourite girls, nat, jan,zy, rachel raja, gwen, mel and ying ying!)
LOVE YOU GUYS SOOO MUCH!

thanks for all the surprise farewells!

2011-01-12T17:49:00.002+08:00

Farewells

: ))) gonna miss them super loads!

going off in australia in a few days....
but....
there are floods : (

2011-01-02T17:58:00.002+08:00

i havent blog for so long!
and now, its 2011!

i started off this year quite well,
i started it with promises that will give me so much hope!
isnt it great to spend new year with those you love?! : )))

and you know what?
i am migrating soon!
i remember i used to say 3 more months to leaving
now its 2-3 more weeks
arent u amaze that time passes so fast?

anyway, i hope this friday comes fast!
im gonna LOVE my weekends! : )

2010-12-20T19:52:00.001+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i am getting prepared for it...

2010-12-15T00:35:00.002+08:00

days have been pretty home-bound.
been cleaning up my room
i totally experience what its like to be surrounded by rubbish
trust me,
it aint a pleasant sight at all!
i literally have to tip toe to get across the room!
AND MY ROOM IS SUPER SMALL!
oh well, the mess is clearing!

and its only 1 week left (plus plus) to christmas!
and i have not started on christmas presents!
last year, i finished e presents by the first week of december!
I AM SOOOO LATE THIS YEAR!
(worried)

well, nothing much have been happening...
but the busy week is coming!

2010-12-09T17:32:00.001+08:00

things to do:
clean up room
make CHRISTMAS PRESENTS!

2010-12-01T17:38:00.003+08:00

back from hongkong
and off to malaysia tomorrow!

dont you think happy days pass by soooooo fast?
yea...
why cant bad days go by quickly and happy days slowly...?!

and it just struck me that i am migrating in about a month's time
ONE MONTH LEFT IN SINGAPORE!
it isnt a really happy thought you know.
and now, i am just left to think about what i am going to this with these last 30 days in singapore...

seriously, i aint sure.

ps: i think glee's songs are super AWESOME!
i can sing it to my friends just to describe how i am feeling heehee

2010-11-20T21:58:00.001+08:00

i really enjoyed this week!

HONGKONG TOMORROW!

2010-11-16T21:24:00.001+08:00

friday
saturday
sunday
monday
tuesday

best days sooooooo far : )

2010-11-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

i have been loving everyday!
: )

and guess what,
tomorrow is chinese o levels, and i am absolutely unprepared!
gosh!
i know the results doesnt matter,
but really, i am getting nervous now.
*bangs head to wall*

leading worship this sunday
and i am praying for no spiritual attack
yes, 4 months of spiritual attack
but i have faith, this month this attack is gone!

squeezing every inspirational juice in me to write poems...
need 2 at least.

oh ya,
my family is setting up the christmas tree already
this year, we are the early birds!

2010-11-05T23:15:00.002+08:00

can i have been having the best days so far.
praise God!
you cannot believe how much have happen,
neither can i

but, i am fearful
yup,
of myself
my past.

but i realise something,
in order to change,
in order to move on,
i cant just sit here and wait for the sky to drop some changing magic
i have to start doing something
and i will.

I WILL MAKE THE CHANGE! (AND GOD WILL EQUIP ME FOR IT!)

2010-11-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

i am praying to God to reveal to me whether i am making the right decisions...

2010-10-29T14:04:00.002+08:00

many things happened yesterday...
it was the last day of school
well, unofficial last day of school
but really,
i was overwhelmed with sadness
cant believe i actually teared.

i am really going to be 3 diligence and st nichs
3 years of sweet, sour, embarrassing moments
SOOOO GONNA MISS IT!

btw,
ezekiel's performance was good!
never thought chinese songs could be so beautiful
yes, i am a chinese who never listen to chinese songs...
well, gonna break that habit!

anyway,
life in singapore is good
but guess what,
i am migrating to australia soon...

2010-10-24T19:00:00.001+08:00

LOVE YOU 3 DILIGENCE`10

2010-10-20T23:53:00.002+08:00

date with janice was awesome!
we talked, ate, talked, watched movie, talked!
hahaha!
i love it when we can just share!
(you'll never believe how similar we are, we are practically going through like some phase of life now!)

movie watched:
EAT, PRAY, LOVE
it was a meaningful show,
like learning about letting go of our past, learning how to balance our life (not everything about work etc) etc etc etc!
yes, janice and i, enjoyed the movie.
we cried!
well, i did!
hahaha!
anyway, i totally recommend the show! : DDD
BEST OF ALL,
its based on a true story!

afterthat,
well basically its just talking to some friends, and tutoring brother...
(i think i have some serious reflection to do though)

anyway,
east coast park and basketball with classmates tmr!
PRAYING FOR A GOOD WEATHER!

btw,
i cant believe homer simpson is a catholic -_-lll

2010-10-19T16:53:00.002+08:00

exams are over,
and im lovin the feeling of it! : DDD

praise God for seeing me through...
indeed God is amazing and gracious!

now, holiday planning :)

2010-10-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

one more examination day left!!!!

2010-10-10T18:51:00.002+08:00

examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!
examinations tomorrow!

i cant believe i said that 15 times...

2010-10-03T18:28:00.002+08:00

we were having a sharing session on friday,
jon tang reminded me of something i forgot...
"Happiness is a choice. You can be happy even in the darkest days of your life if you choose to be happy..."
and yes,
I WILL BE HAPPY!
BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY!

filming today was quite productive...
how the video will come about, i entrust it to God!

anyway, today's sunday's sermon was meaningful!
it is about remembering our first love with Christ!
(Revelations 2:1-7)

How will life be without remembering the first love?
1. service will be empty, routine
2.life feels meaningless, routine
3. edurance, faith and love becomes forced
4. doctorine becomes narrow minded

Basically, daniel shared 3 steps to reconciling/ finding back the first love again!
1. Recall (remember the first time you felt God's love)
2. Repent (change your priorities)
3. Redo

In John 21:
Jesus knew that Peter needed restoration (after denying for 3 times)
However, Jesus didnt ask Peter to win 1000 souls just to be restored,
neither did he ask Peter to set up a big church,
BUT!
He asked Peter if He loved Him...
3 times!

I question myself,
when was the first time i encountered God's love
and i realise it was when i wanted to say the salvation prayer in pri 2
and i was reminded of why i chose to be a Christian,
cause,
life without Jesus is just a horrible
life without Jesus is just a nightmare
life without Jesus is just meaningless

hence, i found my first love!
and it is when Jesus came into my life one night

when you find your first love,
you should be happy right
and Jesus is always in my heart
so i should always be happy!
even in my darkest hour!

AMEN!

2010-09-30T18:28:00.003+08:00

Looking Through Your Eyes
LeAnn Rimes
Quest for Camelot

Look at the sky
Tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes
And describe it to me
The heavens are sparkling
With starlight tonight
That's what I see
Through your eyes

I see the heavens
Each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat
Just go on for miles
And suddenly I know
My life is worth while
That's what I see
Through your eyes

Chorus:
Here in the night
I see the sun
Here in the dark
Our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands
We can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes

I look at myself
And instead I see us
Whoever I am now
It feels like enough
And I see a girl
Who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes

(Chorus)

And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to go
And there is so much I'll remember
Underneath the open sky with you forever

(Chorus)

2010-09-26T14:51:00.005+08:00

today's devotion was awesome!

2010-09-26T14:48:00.002+08:00

DEAR BLOGGER! MATT IS ANNOYING!

he is like talking to himself right now

and i am just typing whatever jon tang doesnt ask me to type!

HEEHEE

anyway, video shooting later!

TOODLES!

hopefully matt keeps quiet

2010-09-25T00:11:00.002+08:00

Worship You Alone
Planetshakers

Your faithfulness never fails
Your faithfulness everyday
You're the same

Unfailing love sets me free
Unfailing love you lead me
With your hand

And all i know
With your arms around me
Your face is all that i seek
Your love and grace
Pick me up and hold me
You alone are holy

For you alone are great in power
You alone are my strong tower
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone

For you alone are my desire
You have set my heart on fire
And i will lift my heart and soul
To worship you alone
Worship you alone

And i will follow after you
For you are my desire
Oh jesus, my heart belongs to you

2010-09-19T16:23:00.002+08:00

Jonah 2:2-9

"He said, "In my distress i called to the Lord, and He answered me. From the depths of the grave I called for help, and You listened to my cry.
You hurled me into the deep, into the very heart of the seas, and the currents swirled about me; all your waves and breakers swept over me.
I said, "i have been banished from Your sight; yet i will look again toward Your holy temple."
The engulfing waters threatened me, the deep surrounded me; seaweed was wrapped around my head.
To the roots of the mountains i sank down; the earth beneath barred me in forever. But You brought my life up form the pit, O Lord my God.
When my life was ebbing away, I remembered You, Lord, and my prayer rose to You, to Your holy temple.
Those who cling to worthless idols forfeit the grace that could be theirs.
But i, with a song of thanksgiving, will sacrifice to you. What i have vowed i will make good. Salvation comes from the Lord."

ya, i am facing 'drowning'

2010-09-12T19:44:00.003+08:00

Pictures speaks better than words at times...

ENJOY!

(australia trip 2010)

yup, i got into the school!
yadee yadee da!
4 months left!

btw, school starts tomorrow!

2010-09-03T16:39:00.001+08:00

off to australia in a few hours...
will be back next week,
toodles people! : DDD

Revelation 22:14
Blessed are they that do his commandments, that they may have right to the tree of life, and may enter in through the gates into the city.

2010-09-01T10:09:00.003+08:00

it is a super frightening thing to think that people can leave the earth just like that...
without warning,
without even knowing when

today, i woke up feeling normal
until i was informed that one of my mum's friend passed away
she had a son younger than my sis,who is 6,and a husband
she had awesome vocals,an awesome smile and she was just married for a few years...

one day she is there
the next day she is gone
never coming back again
just like that

according to my mother,
the virus was there long ago
it was just slowly killing her
one bit by one bit
everyone thought that when the operation was successful, it meant that she was saved....
most stop praying,
and she was gone from the earth today.

currently mum regrets not spending time with her
she never visit her for 1 year plus!
and before she can even take a step to communicate,
the person is already gone from this earth

many times we wake up day after day after day
and never bother to talk to our family members or friends
we think we have all the time in the world to build the bond
we procrastinate mixing around and spending time with others
but actually time is just ticking away

we tend to engross ourselves in "un-social" activities such as studying or working
till we neglect the fellowship of friends and family members
it is not until we lose the chance forever till we regret our actions
but regret will not solve anything,
once a person is gone, he or she will never come back again

i am not saying that studying or working is bad
it is important!
but do not neglect the aspect of love and friendship because you are busy earning hard cash, earning good results

think about this,
you see your friend everyday at the bus stop
but dont talk to him/ her
as recently you are mugging for end of year examinations(EOY)
this goes on for weeks
after EOYs are over, you look around and realise that you have not been seeing that bus stop friend for a period of time
you call up the handphone, but there isnt any answer
you call up the housephone,
and the parents tell you that your friend has passed away

why is it that many of us have to experience our friends facing near-deaths-experiences in order to start treasuring them?
not everyone live after those kind of experiences....

i hope the world will learn this truth:
it is indeed a daily thanksgiving to know that our family members and friends are still breathing

2010-08-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

NUS HIGH's Sustainable Development Youth Convention 2010

it was awesome!
and i definitely dont regret going for this!
btw, dinner and dance was really dinner and DANCE!

teachers' day!
though a certain person annoyed the entire student body yesterday
we cant compromise teachers' day just because of her right?!

australia this friday!

2010-08-23T17:49:00.002+08:00

i wrote this on my notebook in school on 19 august 2010, thurs.
wanted to blog it on the day itself, but had no time...
oh well!

this is what i wrote:

today, 19 august 2010, i had PE and today, 19 august 2010, i had the best PE lesson.

Just in 1h 10 min, 3 diligence learnt and exhibit the values of YOG, friendship, respect and excellence. Yes, these 3 values wer shown in a simple game of modified half court basketball. We played in 1/4 of a half court, in groups of 2 and had 2 oponents. yup, it is really that small of a game. so you must be wondering how can the values be shown?

this is how we did it:
1. we included everyone, despite their differences
(eg: i cant run as i was recovering from appendicitis operation, some are better in dribbling etc...)
2. we played to our best
(everyone ended PE lesson in a drenched shirt)
3. we had handshakes after every match
(i even evented a personalised handshake!!! )

Well, of course this is part of the reason why PE was meaningful, but there is more that happened. I admire hazel, my partner. as you all know, i had appendicitis operation a few weeks back. though i can move now, i cant run. so throughout all 7 matches, hazel was the one running to catch the ball and intercept the ball, while i could only walk. you can compare the amount of energy she put in by comparing our shirts after PE. i was sweat a little and the t shirt was partially wet, but hazel's shirt made her seemed as though she ran in the rain! yes, although i keep on telling her to rest, she will say she is alright and continue running to get the ball. i really am impressed! she put so much effort to include me in the team, to adapt to my disability of running!

another fantastic experienced happened around the 7th match. hazel injured her thumb on her right hand and you know what the oponents and i did? we decided to put our right hand behind our backs and only use our left hand to play. it was difficult and all of us were tired from the past 6 matches, but we did that to include her. ms lim did not teach us anything about fair play, but we still do it. and imagine, the oponents happily agreed to the idea. no complains at all! only love and acceptance. isnt that wonderful?!

during the debrief, ms lim talked about what we have learn from the games and even the part of working together to include everybody. be is short, tall, poor played, good player etc. she then shared about a sec 4 girl, Clara. Clara is born with only one arm, but yet she chose to play softball for the 10 week PE programme. ms lim said that she treated her like any other students. no special treatment and ms lim then questioned us how clara is able to play with only one arm? apparently, during fielding, she uses one hand to catch, take out the glove and throw. while batting, she uses one hand to bat the ball and the teammates run for her. yes, working together. i admire that she aims for excellence and always try and never say "no thanks" she takes up every opportunity, work on it and overcome it.

true excellence, true respect, true friendship.

anyway, this PE lesson had really open my eyes and got me thinking. it is indeed amazing that such strong values can be applied in daily activities. it isnt hard being a good person, it just takes courage and a little sacrifice!

2010-08-16T18:50:00.001+08:00

Isaiah 54: 4-8

4 "Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame.
Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated.
You will forget the shame of your youth
and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood.

5 For your Maker is your husband—
the LORD Almighty is his name—
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer;
he is called the God of all the earth.

6 The LORD will call you back
as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit—
a wife who married young,
only to be rejected," says your God.

7 "For a brief moment I abandoned you,
but with deep compassion I will bring you back.

8 In a surge of anger
I hid my face from you for a moment,
but with everlasting kindness
I will have compassion on you,"
says the LORD your Redeemer.

2010-08-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

YOG WAS SPECTACULAR AND THE FLAME LIGHTING WAS BREATH TAKING!
its the tornado flame!!!!

there goes my 3 weeks of mc
and currently i have to go back to school daily
sighh

parents are going overseas for a week
am in charge of the family!
WOW!
HEAD OF THE FAMILY! : DDD

have another science "competition" coming up
quite exciting
it will be MUN style, plus theres a d&d (dance and dinner)

oh and i am very impressed by janice and xinru's testimony in the email!
they are really growing : DDD

btw, i recommend you guys to read
ISAIAH 53 : )))

2010-08-09T16:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
cant wait for NDP show later!

and yup, am enjoying my long weekend break,
well, i was!
friday,saturday and sunday was packed!
didnt even have time to do hw!
thus now i am rushing through work and have to study for physics and emaths test!

gosh,
i think inception is a really cool movie.
the person who thought of this concept/theory is a genius.
it is the first science fiction show i really enjoyed watching too!
i wonder whether this concept will really exist in the future...
but i did learn something,
too much of fantasy isnt good, as you will mix it up for reality.
(yup, and i love fantasy....)

anyway,
talk to quite a lot of people yesterday in church.
well, basically about two stuff,
1. WHAT IS A NEPHILIM?
2. updating...

seriously,
what is a nephilim.
these are the 2 explanations internet gives:
1. offspring of a fallen angel and a mortal human
2. offspring of Cain's decendants and Seth's decendants
weird explantions, especially the 1st one,
is it really possible?
i thought it was just a fiction story.

the bible only mentions nephilim twice.
but they are known to be big, like giants.
wanteng said that i would only be at their knee length...
WOW
Archeologists found bones, claiming that it is those of a nephilim,
yet some people say those are hoax..

so what is a nephilim anyway?

had a great talk with rachel raja too! : DDD
i feel great when i am accountable to my friends, and vice versa.

kim and rach tay are coming over for drama tomorrow
and an early time of 8am!
YARNNNN!
i think my eyes are gonna droop down as they update me on everything!

2010-08-03T17:50:00.003+08:00

back to school after 1week plus of resting at home.
haha!
and boy, i was greeted by an unexpected chinese test
not forgetting Ss project presentation and o level bio spa!
However, all it over!
and i am rejoicing for that!

now, i only have tomorrow's bio test...
May God's spirit just take control of my studies!

Bandung medical mission trip is this thursday,
and quite disappointed i cant go
i miss the people!
really!!!!

anyway, i think today's devotion was good!

From today's 40 day of prayer and fast book:
Using God's spiritual gifts with no basis of love is like sitting down to your favourite meal, only to discover that the main ingredient is missing.

Love is the main ingredient of the Christian life, love is the primary evidence of being filled with the Spirit.

...As Fyodor M. Dosteovsky wrote: " What is hell? I maintain that it is the suffering of being unable to love..."

2010-07-29T13:15:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU GUYS FOR THE VISITING ME AND FOR THE AWESOME PRESENTS!

currently, i am spending time at home
doing work
talking on msn
etc

quite stagnant and boring!
i cant go out yet!
hopefully my parents will allow me to go for FOP tomorrow....

well, i am recovering
appetite is gradually coming back
though i still dont feel like eating
my wounds are bruised
quite freaky to look at too!

anyway,
i am finding peace because i have much more time to do devotion
and God is indeed good!
it is really nice to do devotion without needing to rush
you can just let is drag for hours and hours
it is just my daddy God and me!
SWEET!

anyway,
i think i should just end of this post with a bible verse!

Proverbs 29:18
" Where there is no revelation, the people cast off restraint; but blessed is he who keeps the law...."

HOW TRUE IS THAT : DDD

2010-07-25T17:49:00.002+08:00

yup,
i had appendicitis!

just a few days ago,
i was admitted to the hospital because i was suspected to have appendicitis (problem with the appendix)
to cut long story short,
yes i did get appendicitis
and i had an operation!
there goes my clean medical record!

anyway,
i am discharged today
and i am currently going to be homebound until i start recovering
no school for a week or 3...
no PE for 2 months!
sighhhh!

anyway,
i wanna thank zhangyi and gwen for surpising me in the hospital
(i woke up and realised that these two were staring down at me...)
i wanna thank them for fetching me back from hospital today too!
and for spending time with me at home!

i wanna thank all those who prayed for my operation and for my health!
(adults, teens , friends etc)

i wanna thank my parents for staying with me throughout the entire process!

i wanna thank yungci, melissa ho, hazel and joey for visiting me in the hospital
and for the yummy tidbits,
plus soft toys for me to cuddle with!

i wanna thank est, jono, waimun, fat ben, yinghui, ezekiel, and those xxon youth who visited me yesterday!
and for the sunflowers!
they are LOVELY!

i wanna thank jon tang, jiaqing, lemuel, dylan, siying, marcus for visiting me today!
and si ying, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
hope you enjoy the cake! : DDD

and for those others who bless me in one way or the other!
THANKS LOADS!

will upload the pictures another time : DDD

i am appendix-less : DDD

2010-07-19T17:50:00.003+08:00

Pictures- LOUD FEST cum CONFIRMATION!

my mentor estella! : D

the stadium

congrates to Rachel Raja for getting confirmed!

Munchers!

Confirmed peeps! : DDD

devotion today was good!

1 Peter 6:6-8
" Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you. Be self controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour."

O level Chinese listening comprehension tomorrow!
God bless all sec 3 and 4 taking the paper!
may He open our ears to hear clearly
and an alert mind to analyse and read the questions carefully!
may He also shut the devil up so that satan cant put thoughts in our heads in order to distract us! : DDD

LOUD FEST!
was awesome!
haha, though it rained!
hopefully i wont get sick from walking in the rain!

2010-07-16T16:19:00.001+08:00

thanks shirley for letting me read this book!

was reading "Rancour"...

quoted:
"When you love someone so much that even their imperfections move you, and they love you the same, that is when you learn true pleasure"

"When mortals say they wish to go back in time to do an event over, they assume that to do it a second time they would not repeat the same mistake. What they do not consider is that to erase that mistake is to erase that lesson it invoked, and thus more mistakes will follow. If i could go back in time to do an even over, i would go back to the best time in my life. And rather than change it, i would savour it"

"When you love someone that emotion will drive you to be honest, even when that honesty may drive you apart."

-Wufsign

2010-07-14T21:58:00.003+08:00

Omg, i really cant find time to blog...
well, school schedule is picking up!
and yes, i can feel the pressure rising...

physics test tomorrow!
and i really hope i can do well
chinese test, heehee! I IMPROVED! and i am rejoicing!

last week was campaigning for ying!
set up a facebook group for her!
guess what! "125 members!"
and still counting! : DDD
well, breaking the 100 mark was a real success!

drama,
currently devising a piece from still building
darn...not getting much idea though

following weeks,
got a o level paper per week
week 4, chinese o level listening
week 5, bio spa o level

but then again,
am i over stressing myself over o levels?!
do i need to take a break.

escaping this would be easy
like real easy
say it and i get it!
but it will be a choice that change everything
(if you know what i mean..)

2010-07-07T22:59:00.001+08:00

" He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time..."
Hebrews 11:25

Moses was indeed a strong person!
i wonder if i can be like him?!

definitely!
with Christ's help of course... : DDD

2010-07-03T18:39:00.002+08:00

quick update:
1. school has started
2. i had my o level chinese oral yesterday (managable)
3. i have an a maths tests on tues
4. drama test is over, got good results though!
5. went to watch zy's performance yesterday with jan and ngeow
6. i decided to participate in the 40 days of prayer and fast (into my 3rd day now)
7. today was st nich's sports day, was the 1st sports day i attended...good job GREEN HOUSE!
8. making a video for ss project
9. tomorrow is youth day
10. i am sharing the testimony during service!

well that is about what happened this week!
and praise God, i think i have the supernatural boldness to preach His gospel!

2010-06-27T15:18:00.003+08:00

shall make this post a quick one...

anyway, i have to blog about ignite conference which was definitely amazing!

background info:
well basically i was feeling dry
and term 2 was kinda boring
nothing spiritual,
i could not even REALLY sense the presence of God during worship!
i also felt purposeless...

the ignite conference showed me what i lost
showed me why i lost my joy
and excitement for God as well.
it is because i wasnt fishing for men
not literally to FISH for guys...
but to evangelise!

the pastor really asked a question that made me ponder
how can i say that i am following God when i am not evangelising?!
God clearly said to make disciples of this world, and i was totally not following his commandments.

altar call was awesome!
i broke down and cried!
after so long...i felt God's presence rushing through me!
i even smelled the sweet anointing smell (though in seconds) for 4 times!
i slained and
ever since after that night,
i have been super joyful!

though i was late,
super late!
God's mercy was definitely with me.
and i was not scolded!
and guess what, yesterday was the last night, and though i was back home at midnight...
my parents were just too happy that i am back on track with God!

well, yesterday ignite conference night session was a full house
i experienced what it is like to have spiritual guidance
(sensed a girl needed a hug, and when i hugged her, she told me she was praying for her hug at that moment)
i experienced a "pentecost" when we all cried out in hunger and desperation for the annoiting of God!

i will never forgot those days, those nights!

right now, i am happy
i am ready
i am prepared
i aint afraid of term 3!
aint afraid of the rest of the days!
i know God's plan for me!
and i am going to do it!

btw,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FAT BEN! (yesterday)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWEN LEE! (today)

2010-06-22T18:35:00.002+08:00

Celebrated Fathers' Day and Hui San's Birthday in Malaysia

definitely enjoyed my trip to melaka!
many things indeed happened since my last visit 4 months ago.
many changes too (good and bad)
oh well...
give thanks in all circumstances...

however, back in singapore
and that means WORK WORK WORK!
i have been doing maths hw for the entire day (still doing)
great.
i really pray that i can complete all my work on time!

2010-06-16T20:01:00.002+08:00

Church Camp 2010!

more photos are on facebook!
trying to upload video, but then again, it is failing me

church camp is awesome!
the youth's performance during fun night was a success!
the durian is tasty!
the beach was refreshing...
(though the news is out)

anyway, going to melacca tomorrow!
spending time with huisan on her birthday!
COOLIOS!

then when i am back,
catch with work
hopefully spend time with friends!!!!

2010-06-09T18:58:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is church camp!
and i cant wait!
first time sitting on budget airlines,
this is going to be an interesting experience.
i thought budget aeroplanes have no toilets,
thank God they do!

and Nathalie's and Gwen's sms were so sweet!
i woke up today morning to find out that these two sweet friends have sms, asking me to enjoy my trip.
though i aint leaving today...
it is the thought that counts, and those messages really meant the world to me!

anyway, yup, so tomorrow is the camp
and i am really going there with an expectant heart!
*prays*
_________________________________________________

yesterday,
spent 5hours in learning point just to take 4 pictures
a real waste of time.
good thing i bought my homework along
but i was distracted by watching avarta.

at least i did my popular shopping and
bought all the father's day material
half way done!
WOOTS!
and i absolutely love my new computer bag/carrier! : DDD

today had chinese project "rehearsal"
and kimsan, joy and i ended up watching glee and VD!
opps?!
oh well, we did rehearsed...
twice
: DDD

anyway, gotta start doing work!
_______________________________________

but before i do that,
i should conclude with something for everyone to reflect about.

1Timothy 3:5
"If anyone does not know how to manage his own family, how can he take care of God's church?"

this verse is somewhat similar to this saying,
How can you love your friends, if you cant love your own family members...

whether you think it in a biblical sense or not...
this is something very important that everyone should reflect upon.

2010-06-08T16:31:00.002+08:00

Dear God,
I promise that i will be a good mentor to Janice, Nathalie and Zhangyi : DDD
In the span of mentor-ship for 2 years,
God may you bless us and lead us to the road of righteousness.
May we grow together,
and face trials together,
and build each other up.

May i always set aside time to spend time with them
to do devotion with them
to learn with them
to grow with them
to smile with them
to cry with them
to have fun with them
to make a difference with them.

Amen.

2010-06-07T15:33:00.002+08:00

This is what i do when i am bored during tuition classes...

woah, and finally my holidays started!

after the extra week of lessons...

well, holidays doesnt seem like holidays

there are so much work to do

and i can barely find time to meet my friends

bleh dont care, i have to find time somehow!

days are so limited.

time isnt on my side.

but then again, GOD IS ON MY SIDE!

so i can do this : DDD

anyway, i have to persevere and work hard for 3 more days

before church camp this thrus! WOOTS!

oh ya,

did i mention i am ALMOST FULLY RECOVERED?!

praise God!

i can eat ice cream : DDD

well, i really hope church camp would be fantastic.

(i just realised i am in the same tribe group as rachel raja)

: DDD

of course i have goals when i go there

wanna catch up with some peers

spend time with rachel

get to know the sec 1 etc.

May God just bless church camp!

hmm...oh! and i cut my hair today

i expected it to be shorter,

but the hairdresses only cut it thinner.

SIGHHH!

i hope a difference can be seen!

well, yup!

have a lot of work to do today!

GOD BLESS TODAY!

2010-06-01T22:39:00.003+08:00

Colossians 4:18
" I, Paul, write this greeting in my own hand. Remember my chains. Grace be with you."

I like the way Paul ended his letter in Colossians.
"Remember my chains..."

That was the legacy he wanted to leave behind.
Not fame, not glory, not even the title of " Best servant of the Lord..."
but chains (which to many represents bondages, no freedom)

To me, Paul wanted to leave behind "chains"
NOT because he wanted to state that being a Christian was tough and stressing, "no freedom"
but because he wanted to symbolise other stuff:

1. Humilty
- in other words, putting yourself to lower ranks, even if it means the lowest rank.
Paul did not choose to minister only to the King and royalties, but he wanted to reach out to the sinners, to the people not only in his country, but OUT OF HIS COUNTRY and even in jail.
Think about this, Paul could have easily (with God's strength) save an entire royal family and that family can set some law that everyone has to be christians, but then
PAUL DIDNT DO THAT.
he wanted to reach out to people from a more personal level.
thus, the chains come in.
how did those people in jail manage to receive Christ?!
because, Paul was there.
He placed himself in the shoes of the prisoners and ministered to them from a more personal basis.
Yes, he humbled himself to the dungeons state in order for souls to be saved.

2. Strength
- despite being bounded and persecuted, Paul was strong and continue to spread the gospal with all his might. He did not fear the chains of bondages, but was on fire for God.

No chain can hold us if we are on fire for God.

" Remember my chains..."
Yes, remember Paul's chains,
remember the chains that could not hold Paul from spreading the gospal
remember the chains that could not bind Paul from showing love

2010-05-31T19:00:00.003+08:00

chinese mock paper is over! YEAH!
4 hours passed by real quick! HAHA!
but it was uncomfortable having to blow my nose and cough every 20 min?!
(i think the class is super dusty)

but then, one day down,
few more days to go.
and extra lessons are only maths and science. sigh
so unbalance.
i think after this week my head will be rattling with mathematical formulas and science terms

got M&S as a gift yesterday!
but i cant eat it...
having soar throat. sigh.

anyway, God postponed the storm...
i think.

anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MELISSA HO!

2010-05-29T09:48:00.002+08:00

AN UPDATE:

school holidays have started for the majority,
but for the minority (sec 3 and sec 4)
we shall spend an entire week in school learning maths n science and science and maths...

report books are back
and i am pleased that there's improvements!
(despite a few not-so-good-results)
then again, i fulfilled my promise!
but now, have to discuss with parents on how i can further improve...
YUP, SACRIFICES is what they meant.

didnt win anything from SHELL
and thus i am questioning God why He brought me to this competition.
guess He is teaching me to learn that winning isnt everything
its the process.
and i dare say i enjoyed the process a lot.

stayed in changi chalet from thurs to fri.
awesome time!
and definitely an awesome chalet!
air con is freezing cold (good!)
oh and i dont mind leaving in that chalet forever! HAHAHA!
there was this point in time i felt like a drunkard,
lying down on a sofa, too lazy to move, with shandy on the table....
anyway, i ate a lot! and this resulted to me having a
MANLY VOICE (again)....
sigh.
oh well, slept late, and woke up early.
but i really enjoyed this chalet, though it wasnt a youth kind of gathering...
spending time with adults and children aint that bad..

watched Shrek yesterday!
and i cried during the last part.
after so long, i finally cried in the movie.
i thought i was losing my emotional self.
i really admire Shrek,
he didnt wish for Fiona to love him, but for the safety of everyone she cared for.
he didnt ask Fiona to kiss him so as to save himself, but thank her for giving him more than enough.
he didnt regret this problem and pushed the blame to others but was grateful for it as he learnt a very important lesson
AWESOME SHOW!

now, i am sick
(great...)
guess all the soft drinks and junk food has caused me to catch the sickness bug.
pray that i will get better BY TOMORROW!

oh ya,
i should start memorising my chinese compo.
chinese test on MONDAY!

but before that i shall conclude this post with a phrase i came up with during my devotion yesterday:
God did not say follow Him and be trouble-less, but follow Him and be victorious!

2010-05-25T20:54:00.004+08:00

Proverbs 21: 30-31
"There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan that can succeed against the Lord.
The horse is made ready for the day of battle, but victory rests with the Lord."

2010-05-23T17:10:00.002+08:00

pictures speak a thousand words...

jubilate was great! : DDD
at least my money didnt go to a waste.
going to jessica's house for awesome feasting now......!
week 10 is dedicated to competition.

oh and btw, i find glenn's teaching super good!

2010-05-20T17:17:00.002+08:00

Things i am looking forward to:
1. jubilate
2. shir in a dress
3. taking pictures with my awesome class 3 diligence
4.end term 2 so that i can have holidays
5.movie marathon (prays*)
6.being able to say,
I CONQUERED 2010!

_______________________________

hmm...i think i plan a lot
well, i already planned my proposal, wedding etc.
(but i havent gone so far to plan how i will die, unlike some ppl...heehee)
but then again,
humans can plan, but God's will determines all!

i realised that i am quite influencing
and i am proud of it
(when people pick up my good points)
i feel super joyful when i managed to change/ plant seeds into people's lives.
i feel super joyful when people quotes me to help them in their lives
i feel super joyful when people hugs me and say "thanks, that really helped a lot"
i feel super joyful when i know that through my leading (in whatsoever ways) i helped people realised something
i feel super joyful when i bless others.
thus, i think i have the gift of blessing : DDD

i conquered napfa today!
and yeah! i got my full marks!( plus cramp muscles on my calves)
oh well, can only blame myself from tip-ping toe just to drink water.
now the muscles are sore.
poor things.

___________________________

i'm back to positive mood.
and thats good!
thanks to everyone who is constantly there to support me.
you guys mean the world to me : DDD

2010-05-19T13:00:00.003+08:00

ya, i am living in the 9th week of term 2!
after all that i have gone through in week 8
its time for me to wake up and say
"Be happy Lydia"

thanks to my friends in school who constantly remind me to have joy
i managed to pull myself together
however, ya,
i guess the lack of sleep cause serious damage to my emotions
grouchy?!

anyway, today i didnt go to school
and finally after so long i can sleep in!
13-14 hours of sleep!
i woke up today feeling so much more refresh, energetic, and ready
and what can be more great than beginning the day with the Word of God?!

Proverbs 15:30
"A cheerful look brings joy to the heart, and good news gives health to the bones."

Straight away God reminds me to be happy, to be cheerful
not only will i be joyful innerly, but i will be healthy as well!
i know tough times are just temporary
and as long as i persevere through,
i can make it!
_________________________

now after declaring that,
i think i have a clearer mindset, and a more-ready mindset to face certain issues

1. time management
i have no idea how my sec 3 life became so much more busier!
i think it is because i have taken to many responsibilities.
but then again, how is it that people can cope and i cant?
thus, i have issues with time management, and i seriously have to look through my schedule and cut down on certain stuff.

2. (level up)
actually after talks with my friends about this i was about to say yes and take on the challenge
but just when i open my msn just now
one of my close friend actually said smth that makes me stop and ponder about taking on this challenge
oh man, i really need to talk to my parents about it.
i really need God to show me a sign, to clarify all my doubts and fears.
GOD! SHOULD I OR SHOULD I NOT?!

3. the boat theory
yup, in just a few weeks time the challenge that will put so many things of mine to the test is going to start
i really dont know what the outcome is
but i hope that after this storm, the boat will come out stronger than before.
*prays*
_________________________

oh well, that is basically what i will say for now
time to get back to the studies
and work!
dont worry,
I WILL BE HAPPY! : DDD
cause
the joy of the Lord is my strength!

2010-05-16T19:23:00.002+08:00

cant believe it that term 2 is going to end,
and before you know it june holidays will end too
then,
O LEVEL CHINESE!

oh gosh, why is time passing so quickly?!
i mean, i dont mind those hectic stress weeks to pass super fast,
but super joyful ones?!
time seems to limited...really!

so today,
i lead worship
and i overshot time by a lot!
usually worship last for 30-40 min,
mine lasted for 1hour and 10min.
woops!
but what jon tang said is true,
when you are in the presence of God, time does pass by super quickly.

anyway, i am glad God forgave me and gave me the strength to go through week 8
with physics and a maths tests
projects that are going to be due
competition for science
(yes, i got in and tomorrow is the presentation to the science centre judges)
plus, having the need to prepare cell materials and worship
time was constraint! it passed by really fast! i was really stressed up!
but,
i think it is such a joy now to think about all the work i have done and congratulate myself for making through the tough week!
i didnt give up!
(though i had a lot of negative emotions roaring inside of me!)
i did it! i conquered week 8!
and now all i have left is week 9 and 10.

hmm...this week is going to be good i hope
nothing much, except for dreaded chinese presentation and ss test
besides that, nth much.
oh yes! jubilate this friday, gonna see shirley (PORK) in a dress : DDD
(HOPE SHIRLEY SEES THAT!)

______________________________________

alright, right now i have to do my chinese project!
SIGH!
I CAN DO IT! : DDD
JIA YOU LYDIA!

2010-05-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

the ultimate test is going to begin soon

i cant really comment anything on our friendship now
as there is nothing to shake it yet.

i am not asking for problems, but
like a boat that needs a storm to see whether it sinks or floats
i need a challenge to see if this friendship is really lasting/ genuine

we both know that it will come soon,
REAL SOON
and right now it is like we are sitting ducks waiting to be shot
but who knows (maybe we are ready?)

i am really anticipating for the results,
will the boat sink or float?!
will it come out of the storm damaged or a stronger ship?!
(an upgrade?)

this is really the test
and personally,
i pray that we will be ready for it

*sorry to the emotional post above, had to say my thoughts...*
________________________________

anyway!
got into the syf science competition-SHELL
okay, i know it is an honour, but right now i think both boyu and my group are lazy to do so..
but then again,
we will do out best!

physics test was annoying
but i should not comment much
all i shall say was that after the test,
people mourn
people cry
people had sad eyes
what do you think happened?!

i also feel that i need a purpose in life right now
i used to be filled with it
but currently, i am just empty
i guess my life has been revolving around meeting people's expectations of me
and...
i dont enjoy it
i think around people i can put up a smile,
but ya, no one can read my heart! my real emotions..
(except GOD!) : DDD

_____________________________________

before ending, i shall say this:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHANGYI!

2010-05-07T15:27:00.003+08:00

i totally enjoyed sec 3 camp!
it was really insightful and many fabulous and eyes opening things happened.

one of most memorable thing i did was accomplishing the challenge pole!
it is an element where you have to climb to a board that is 3-4 storey(s) high
via a pole with "steps"
then, at the board you have to get up without any HAND SUPPORT
then there is this trapezz like bar dangling in the air,
and you have to jump from the board to catch the bar.
(of course i was wearing a harness)
like the 'leap of faith'.

i really wanted to attempt this challenge since the beginning of camp,
as i had tried the other high elements, rock climbing, bridge etc, before
during pri 5 camp.
thus, the challenge pole offered me a new challenge
climbing the pole was not the challenge,
getting up the board and jumping is.

i burnt/ scorched my hand by touching the metal piece on the top to push myself to stand on the board.
thus, i had to use the wooden part of the pole instead, making everything more difficult.
it is not easy to look down and keep still so that the pole wont rock.
i mean, it is like you are commiting suicide
(just that you arent)
the instructors at the bottom were like," once you are ready, say that you are 'jumping' and JUMP"
oh yes, "look at the bar too and enjoy the scenery"

there wasnt any scenery!
jump trees, i couldnt even see the sea -_-lll
thus it was only me and the bar, looking down would be a bad choice,
you will shake.
i remembered that i took many deep breaths and had to wipe the sweat from my hands hundreds of time (exaggerating of course)

AND I JUMPED!
and i managed to touch the bar and held it for a few short seconds before falling.
" oh and i screamed falling instead of jumping"....
it was really a success and it wasnt that scary after all.
it truely tested my courage/ guts

its just like life, sometimes we just have to take the step and jump
to take initiative, whats that?!
it is to have many ideas and to take actions to try.
failure doesnt exist,
because as long as you try
whether you reach the bar or not, you are an absolute champion!

through this camp, i saw unity too!
unity among classmates and cohort.
from coming together to perform to singing at the canteen like mad people!
ST NICH GIRLS ARE HIGH!
it is really cool when the entire school have a shared vision.

another thing that was remarkable was the tire low element
where we had to carry our friends and move everyone to the other side of the tire via the hole in the middle.
it taught me that humans are like ants.
as individuals we cant really move stuff, but as a group of (small people) we can shift mountains!

and then there were my 2 insightful instructors,
Ada and Gareth.
Ada really inspired me in christianity sense.
i remember she being the belayer and i was her anchor.
she was speaking in tongues when belaying
and i was also amazed at how she could give glory to God so easily without fear.
when i went home today, i looked at her blog/ facebook and i could really tell she is Crazy about Jesus!
i think she was God-sent to inspire me of the daily usages of prayer!
and even speaking in tongues!

yup, many more things were learnt, those were just the few great ones!
and of course, there is the camp experience;
few minutes to bathe
washing of dishes
no air con to sleep
sleeping in sweat
in the hot sun( enjoying my tan)
etc!

i think after A levels i wanna be an instructor for a camp once!
: DDD
TEEHEE, it will be an awesome experience.

i think 3 diligence has really got to know each other quite well after this camp!
and thus, i feel that i should end off with the 3 diligence cheer!

oh my gosh,
we think that ms chua is super hot!
3D i swear,
has awesome people eveywhere!
love, care, stop and stare,
for our friendships' always there
we may fall, we may cry,
but we will make sure we will try
we are the D to the I to the
"oh nevermind"
we're DILIGENCE!

2010-05-03T22:55:00.001+08:00

week 7
mon- no school
set a record on msn!

tues- school, class tee, animal farm!
(back home late)
(cant use com)

wed-fri:
SEC 3 CAMP!

so will not be posting anything for a week?!

BUT YA!
i am excited!

and if jan is reading this,
i am still practising "gift of a friend" on guitar ; DDD

2010-05-02T16:20:00.002+08:00

justin bieber,
listen to his songs once, and you will find it ordinary
but after re-listening to it over and over again,
it is actually catchy.
not bad for a boy his age.

hmm...
life is kinda tough right now.
expectations and stuff.
it is not really a good feeling that you are living this life to please others.
i mean, IT IS YOUR LIFE.
arent you suppose to archieve something that you can be proud of.
i dont know,
doing work right now seems to be for one reason,
expectations.
i am losing the meaning of sch life,
and teenage life is becoming depriving.
SIGHHH....

anyway,
week 7 is here!
and i pray that is would be a good week.
well that is like a 80% chance that is would indeed be a good week.
why?
mon no school, tues school but watching animal farm with the drama peeps!
wed, thurs and fri is SEC 3 CAMP!
woots!
i really cant wait,
but as you all know, good times pass fast,REAL FAST
thus,
shall really treasure this week with all my heart! : DDD

2010-04-27T22:15:00.002+08:00

if only i can say things so openly....
if only i had no boundaries in this...
just this...
just this once...
you would know everything!
and i can finally breath a sigh of gratitude!

2010-04-26T18:58:00.003+08:00

Hello ~ Lionel Richie (1983)

I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying ... I love you

this can be some kind of wedding song or annivesary song!
or proposal song or something!

super nice! : DDD

haha
lydia the dreamer!

2010-04-22T20:42:00.002+08:00

just an update on what has been going on:

tried M&S biscuits,
had a tiring week,
tests , projects and dealines to meet
had only 4 and a half hours of sleep
getting eye bags

leading worship this sunday
praying that i will not get soar throat

received unexpected information
shocked

in shell science competition again
just because of this project,
i was angry, tired etc
but it will be worth it right?!

dad came back from spain
and now i want to tour there too

last day of school for the week tmr!
and woots!
next week is gonna be a good week!

2010-04-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

"they have greatly oppressed me from my youth,
but they have not gained the victory over me..."
Psalms 129:2

Amen!
just this week...and stress will decrease!

2010-04-14T18:11:00.002+08:00

2 Cor 6:4-10
"Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hardwork, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonour, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as imposters; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed, sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything"

Woah, this week is going pretty fast
one thing is for sure, i had a great experience in presenting in a
science fair/ exhibition.

haha
i never expect myself to enter a science competition
thus when i entered the halls of anderson jc,
i felt out.
(STATUS QUO?!)

anyway,
everyone looked professional!
and i couldnt help but admiring their skills

presenting was the most scary part.
especially to the judges
with their stern faces looking at you,
haha, it is super easy to forget what you are going to say
but one thing is for sure,
you dont need a script,
it is a distraction.
your project, hence you should be able to know everything and explain everything (even in singlish)
sadly, i didnt know that then...

though we didnt win,
i can sure say we did our best.
(OH AND ANOTHER SCIENCE COMPETITION IS COMING UP!)

today was exhibition day to the public.
i repeated my entire report at least 5 times...
but it was surprisingly enjoyable.
seeing people understanding what you bring across...
AWESOME FEELING!

many people gave comments which i never expected,
"your attitude is so admirable"
"you can speak very well, have you been doing this before or is it some st nich thing?"
"you should have gotten the gold"
etc etc etc,
there was this girl who was like wanting to add me on facebook?!

but all these comments are signs that
hey, i did present well, and
those words were words of assurance.
i enjoyed that
(and i even presented without my script)

haha, so the competition is over, and a new one is coming up real soon!
GOING TO DO BETTER FOR SURE! : DDD

2010-04-08T16:52:00.002+08:00

Devotion:

Psalm 127: 1
"Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labour in vain
Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain"

Basically this verse taught/reminded me of 2 things:

1.Whenever we do something, make sure God is pleased with it
Humans can build the temple of God all they want,
Solomon could have built 1000 golden temples for God,
but as long as God doesnt dwell in the temple and honour it,
it is worthless as it defeats its purpose.

Why would God not honour the hard work of men?

Well,
humans tend to lose sight of the ultimate purpose time and time again.

for example:
dont you feel that sometimes when you are doing your homework,
you start thinking of other nonsence that has no relation to homework
or improvement of academics?
see, you are sidetracted, you are losing sight of the ultimate purpose of homework.
it isnt about parents, neither is it about for-the-sake-of-it
the true ultimare purpose is to help you improve in your knowledge skills!

likewise,
these men who builds the temple of God might have been doing it for the wrong reason
they might have been doing it to "show" others on how "cool" their religion is
or even to do it because they are ordered/paid to do so.

Remember,
God doesnt only see the actions of men,
but the heart as well.
Like the story of Cain and Abel.
both gave an offering to God, but God only honoured Abel's offering
this is so as Abel did it for God,
unlike Cain who did it for the sake of doing so.

Linking this back to modern times,
okay, maybe we do not build churches due to our young age,
but we do give offering every sunday.
think about this: why do you give offering?!
majority of you may answer: FOD GOD'S KINGDOM,
but does your words reflect your true heart's attitude?!

2. All things are possible through Christ
We are humans, we are flawed.
Thus many times we do rediculous things that God isnt pleased with
As long as God is against your actions, you will not succeed!

Like the story of the tower of Babel.
God was against then, and did they succeed?
No, it was never accomplished,
in fact, God punished them!

Hence, you can spend years building a house,
but without God's support,
it will never be accomplished aka "Good Game"

We are also humans who need God's guidance and protection.
We may see 1km but God sees the entire world at a go.
You may be the watchmen, the "security guard" who watches over the country or city,
but without God's favour upon this nation,
we are equavilent to being doomed.

2010-04-04T21:02:00.001+08:00

from fatty benny's blog : DDD

from thomas jefferson's original draft of the Declaration of Independence ,
fat ben deduced some stuff:
he turned these political chunk of words into something applicable for all

the fact that we hold life in our hands..
shows that we are the masters of our own lives
hence, when we see something not right
we should do something about it
especially if we have the ability to do something about it

then what about God you may ask?!

well, God doesnt control your actions,
(unless you believe in predestinaton, which is the concept whereby you believe that everything that happens is fate)
the opposite of predestination would be free will, which basically means we have the ability to choose..
the truth it, God has a planned path for you..
but u still have to ultimately choose the path you want to take.
He doesnt treat us like a puppet, but let us decide for our own.
He guides, but doesnt forces!

In conclusion,
"The world may want saints... but what the world really needs are knights"

we always want and hope that people would do good..
but what we really need are people who will fight for good..

fatty benny : DDD

2010-04-04T16:57:00.002+08:00

1 Cor 16: 13-14
" Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be men of courage; be strong.
Do everything in love.

Back from Sheoul (grave) outreach was totally great!
turn ups! good!
food! good!
worship! good!
games! good!
fellowship!awesome!

haha!
got a choc egg from louiza today, but i want a choc bunny!
and today, service was quite cool!
had dad and mum singing,
got baptism,
sat with rachel <3
etc!

blink of an eye,
easter, good friday gone!
tomorrow, back to school!
excited , yes!
for tests?!, NO!

2010-03-29T22:21:00.001+08:00

i am feeling much better today...
dont worry! : DDD

2010-03-29T22:21:00.000+08:00

i am feeling much better today...
dont worry! : DDD

2010-03-28T13:28:00.003+08:00

i have not felt so guilty, so upset for SO LONG!
what is this man.
where is the joy!?

what you guys said seriously made me pondering again.
i am mean
i am stubborn
i know what to do, but i am just not willing to do it.

"mean", "duty"
argh those words that pierce hard right into my chest.
i cant help it, i know i am wrong somewhere in the line
i know i am partially at fault but
I AM NOT WILLING TO SPEAK YET!

am i really committing such a sinful crime?
you guys tell me what to do,
and i do know what to do,
just not willing...is that too BAD?!

argh,
i am the bad person to many for this right
i am the foolish person
i am the unforgiving person.
i am seriously a _____ person.
(i get it)

i just wanna fly off this world now.
why is all these unnecessary problems coming?!

GOD PLEASE ANSWER!
i need to know,
i need strength
why do you seem so far away.
(i know you are near, but so close yet so far)
and i can give a reason for that: cause i am unwilling

IT IS ALL BECAUSE I AM UNWILLING!

2010-03-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

Like A Fire
Planetshakers

Like a fire shut up in my bones
I want the world to know You are God
With a passion burning deep within
I want the world to know that You live

Let Your presence come and saturate
Every part of me, make me new
Let Your Spirit come and move within
Fill me once again ’cause I need more

Jesus I’m desperate for You
Jesus I’m hungry for You
Jesus I’m longing for You
‘Cause Lord You are all I want

Come like a flood and saturate me now
You’re all I want
Come like the wind and sweep throughout this place
You’re all we want

Songwriter: Joth Hunt

2010-03-24T21:01:00.002+08:00

1Cor 10:23
""Everything is permissible"- but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible"-but not everything is constructive."

The bible gets more real and real each time i read it!
this verse it truely a reminder that dont waste time doing things that it is meaningless
imagine spending 1h slacking, stoning...
you could have used that hour to call up a friend and ask how she is and stuff
time is precious.
your youth dont last forever.
live life fully for God!

During CCA,
Mrs Gurong said this,
" Everyone is impaired some way or the another (be it in a subject, physically, etc) It is only when we overcome this barrier (like how Helen Keller overcame her disabilities) can we really soar out of our world!"

well, cca isnt meaningless at all.
if you pay attention.
teachers do say the greatest sentences of all!

anyway,
yup, i am sick.
flu, soarthroat, headache, and hopefully NO FEVER!
skip school on tues, yesterday, but didnt really REST
more of doing homework and cleaning up my room
(note: they isnt wasting time though)
so ya, i am blogging in a neat room right now! WOOTS!
cant believe that 3 groups could not perform for drama just because of sick people, like me.
mr A would have been MAD!
i imagine his expression.

term 2 has been pretty alright, surprisingly.
not much tests, there is laughter, joke.
COOLIOS!
but what happens when week 2 arrives?
WHO KNOWS? leave it up to GOD!

oh ya, i should blog about this week's monday!
many things happened!
firstly, i was already super tired due to staying awake during my sleeping hours just to print project stuff...
(was falling ill)
secondly, i was "worrying" about worship for this sunday.
need the songs and everything...
BUT!
on monday, i found out i have science centre trip this sat, and thus, cannot lead worship.
if i had an earlier notice, i could have told dani in time.
had to trouble her, SO LAST MINUTE, to find a replacement....

then there was the science CHEM proj for some anderson jc competition.
well, i managed to print the 4 sets of 30 pages report out.
and i thought it was the end of the hardwork.
I WAS WRONG.
i totally forgotten/ didnt know, i have to have a soft copy on my thumbdrive.
i thought i could send it to mrs tan after school, but NO!
the anderson guy was coming to transfer the files at 2.45pm and
teacher says she didnt want the guy to wait.

i end school at 2.20 and i have to go back home, transfer file, go back to school by 2.45?
it is impossible.
only one possible solution, if mdm suah would allow me to end class early,
and leave at 2.
there was about 1% chance she would even allow.
i prayed and prayed, and when i asked her,
i knew there were only 2 possibilities,
1. NO!
2. dismiss at 2.10? (10min) earlier.
but guess what, she said okay, and asked whether 2 was sufficient?!
it was indeed a GOD DELIVERANCE!
at 2, i dashed out of the school and found that there was already a taxi outside the gate.
took the taxi home, and was back at home by only a few min.
transferred files...etc, and went out to catch a taxi back to school..

everything seemed perfect, i had sufficient time!
but, then as i waited by the road, many taxi(s) passed by me,
but none heading towards toa payoh direction.
NONE!
i waited for quite a long time, and seeing that the opp side of the road had more "luck"
i crossed by faith.
i waited and waited. no taxi(s) at all!
about 15 min passed, and i was still waiting.
suddenly i saw a taxi, i told GOD, "Lord, if this taxi would not stop to toapayoh, i will run to the MRT"
and by GOD's GRACE! that taxi driver was willing to send me back to school as quick as possible.
things seemed to lighten up again!
WRONG!

i was caught in a traffic jam due to the downpour.
my heart was just thumping heavily.
i closed my eyes and just kept on praying for faith and open doors!
i called my friends to locate the teacher and tell her about my whereabouts, that
i was stuck in a traffic jam!
2.45pm, passed.
LATE!
i arrived at school at 3!
i dashed out of the taxi and ran in the rain to the office where i found my chem teacher smiling away.
she was like what happened, and when i told her all that have happened,
SHE LAUGHED!
totally a constrast from a furious face.

oh well,
monday, term 2 week 1 was indeed hectic!
had drama prac till 630, went straight to chinese tuition,
back at 9, slept, and fell sick! HAHA!
oh well, GOD HAS HIS PURPOSE FOR EVERYTHING.
but indeed, it was a test of faith : DDD

2010-03-21T20:49:00.002+08:00

" Though I am free and belong to no man, I make myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible"
1Cor 9: 19

" Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. Therefore i do not run like a man running aimlessly; i do not fight like a man beating the air. No, i beat my body and make it my slave so that after i have preached to others, i myself will not be disqualified for the prize"
1Cor 9:25-27

what are your thoughts on this?
servanthood is a character leaders need.

term 2 starting tomorrow.
WOAH!

2010-03-19T22:44:00.002+08:00

There is a reason why there are endless clichés about perseverance...

"Hang in there"
"When the going gets tough..."
"No pain, No gain"

They were invented to remind us that there is honor in hardwork, which makes success taste even sweeter.

Fattybenny gives good advise!

2010-03-18T22:00:00.001+08:00

"It's not because things are difficult that we don't dare; It's because we don't dare that things are difficult"

This is what fattybenny told me.

go visit his blog that i am trying to update daily now.

http://fattybennyknowitall.blogspot.com

2010-03-17T21:26:00.003+08:00

GATSBY CAMP!
well, now it will get a bit boring when i reflect a bit on what went on during the camp.

indeed, i have to give credit to the leaders for planning such a successful camp
it was only a team of 4 people i guess...
this shows that it is not necessary to have a huge planning team in order for a successful camp to be archieve.
i guess God truely strengthened them and despite stress and anxiety,
i think they can say is this:
IT WAS WORTH IT!
ALL THE WAY GATSBY CAMP COMM.!!!

so yes, they were indeed clever to split up all the cliques,
especially mine (though i wont describe it as a clique)
but ya, they were wise in the choice of team members

i have to be honest, i was not totally happy with whom i was grouping with,
wished there were my girls there
but oh well,
the camp comm. was smart.
placing me in a group that was completely not the usual groupings i had
was indeed a challenge that should be given thanks for.
i have to admit i got closer to team mates like angel and fatty benny
and got to know new friends such as liucan
yes, totally awkward grouping, but with lessons to be learnt at every angle

now, the games in the camp were indeed chosen wisely
yup, though some of the games were not pleasing in a sense,
there were lessons behind it
arguements, anger were breed i guess (100% honest about this)
but love and care were fostered as well
i guess we have to focused on the brighter side!
and i really wanna compliment team: GELLAX.
i have never seen such a bonded united team and it isnt surprising they would win almost every game
not only do they work together, they cheer together and support others together
(oh, and are really polite too)
it truely dawned upon me that unity truely plays a huge role in the body of Christ.
what if someone doesnt play a part?
surely the church will crack somehow.
GELLAX was impressive and a true role model too!

now, overall views.
i think that food was great!
love breakfast-nutella bread.
and lunch and dinner was satisfying
want my more curry *hint*

ministry time is also fulfilling
my expectations were met
i feel ready for term 2 and the days to come
i know what is coming for this year, and i am going to be prepared for it
daniel said this year, is the year where i will really transformed in character
but i would go through a lot of difficulties, hardships just to shed all those old skin
like a butterfly emerging from a caccoon,
the process is tough
but it is worth it.
and now, i have something to totally remind me to press on, persevere on!
the ending will be good.
tough days dont last, but tough people do!

friends.
well, besides my team mates,
i got to catch up with old buddies like jessica, louiza
reconcile with people
pray for others
and make new friends (like the younger ones -jia qing, marcus, etc)
yup! it was great!
oh and talking to fatty benny is awesome!
like walk 10 rounds and time seems to pass so fast!
haha! cool bro!
(anyway, i have to update his blog soon)

OH YA!
and ex classmate-kenneth- came!
it is truely by GOD's grace man!
and i think a seed was indeed laid in his heart
yihui came to the Lord too!
BLESSINGS!

and i have to type this:
first night, was mosquito infestation.
terrible. mosquitoes were everywhere.
and it was quite symbolic to me.
i lead worship that night, and i prayed this out loud:
"May God's presence be in this hall, so that Satan cannot enter this place, but if he does, may we trample on him"
so the mosquitoes were like Satan's doing, trying to destract us from focusing on the Lord.
there were two groups of people:
1. people who were seriously distracted, and just spent the night shoo-ing the mosquitoes and insects away
2. people who ignore the surroundings n just listen(though occasionally if u see an insect on you, just whack it)
well, i thank God i was in group 2.
in the bible, there are stories of disciples that were bitten by poisonous creatures such as snake but was not affected at all by the venom.
guess what, when i got bitten, i was not affect by the venom.
the scars were evident, but there were no pain.
though right now, my body is itching because of the bites, (i went to scratch opps)
i think God is truely a deliverer and an amazing GOD!

yup, so now you know why camp is great!
: DDD

oh ya, and guess what,
i slept at 3.30am and woke up at 7am
was super tired
and had no time to sleep at home cause had drama prac
i was dozing off man!
my brain was like running away...etc
but oh well,
I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

note: we as Christians are like farmers that sow the seeds to the field, but God is the overall controller. He controls the growth of the plants. so do be disencouraged when what you sow do not reap immediately! : DDD

2010-03-13T12:42:00.002+08:00

cant you believe it
term 1 is over
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!

well, yesterday was an impressive day!
haha! and model citizens play was totally awesome!
i feel so inspired
what i hope is that it is inspiring enough to get me some ideas for drama devising for the seal wife piece.

and today i shall stay over at sentosa
so ya, toodles to this com for today?! (a day...)

holidays are going to be great i guess
besides the fact that tons of work are piling up
really piling up
i guess right after gatsby camp i have to go back to mugging
hopefully after this camp,
i will indeed be recharged to serve the LORD
in school
at home
in the public
etc

yes, and i should end off this term with this quote that i "designed":
doesnt mean i am not flying now means i have no wings, i am just preparing myself to soar!

2010-03-11T18:42:00.002+08:00

yup,
today is the second last day of term 1.
and how quick is that!

this week of school has been awkward,
giving chances and regretting it
but during today's devotion makes me realise something:
this aint worth my anger

i know i hold a lot against _____--
ya but, is it worth getting angry at such a small matter?
bad impressions,

but maybe i am the same.

i am not the most beautiful person in the world,
i am not the most smartest,
i am not the richest,
but i know i am one of the most fortunate people in the world
cause i have a God up there who sees me as beautiful no matter what.
NO MATTER WHAT!
(this is something i will never exchange for)

just pray that tomorrow will be a fresh day
a day
a great day
a great day to end term 1
OFFICIALLY

2010-03-09T20:01:00.002+08:00

1 Cor 1:8-9
" He will keep you strong to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ.
God, who has called you into fellowship, with His Son Jesus Christ our Lord, is faithful."

Amen.
Though my results are horrible now, it is not the end.
it is the beginning of a fresh revival and wake up call.
I will indeed excel and will also remember this,
if the end is not good, it is not the end yet, as the end will indeed be good.
I know God will reward me in His timing,
all i have to do is persevere and trust in Him.

2010-03-07T17:10:00.002+08:00

spent a day convincing
people to go for getaway camp
spent a day convincing
parents to let their kids go for getaway camp.

it was a fulfilling exprience,
i seriously feel that something great is going to happen during camp
everyone will be impacted
and i am not convinced that so few people should be attending
GOD'S MIRACLES ARE GONNA POUR YO!
the whole entire world should flood the place now,
to be ready,
to be ready to receive.
may more people come. : DDD

had leaders' meeting
and was really captivated by gloria
she looks so innocent.
as i watch how dani play with gloria,
how she cleaned the saliva everytime it drip on her hand,
well, i just feel that my mum is awesome.
that is what she did for me.
and now, i can watch how she did it.
dont you find it annoying whenever saliva is on your hand?
but a mothers' love is so pure, so sincere
dani wipes the saliva away with joy, with the sparkle in the eye.
sweetness!

i have a lot of pondering to do about being a leader.
commitment?
*thinks*

2010-03-05T18:00:00.001+08:00

Seriously,
take time and watch this video.
simple video, with one purpose- to spread the gospel.

it was a reminder of my faith. : DDD

2010-03-03T17:14:00.002+08:00

Prayer for the day:
Lord, i pour out my heart before You regarding the things in my life that cause me grief. i lift my hands to You because i know You are my hope and Your compassion for me never fails. Heal me of all emotional pain, and use the sorrow i have suffered for good. I pray that in Your presence i will find total restoration. Amen

Declaration for the day:
Psalms 91
vs 1-2, 4-7, 11-16
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, " He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust."
He will cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you will find refuge; His faithfulness will be Your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror night, nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you.
For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all ways;
they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread upon the lion and the cobra; you will trample the great lion and serpent.
"Because he loves me, " says the Lord, " I will recus him; I will protect him, for he acknowledges My name.
He will call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honour him.
With long life will I satisfy him and show him My salvation."

2010-03-01T00:34:00.003+08:00

I thank God for this day,
for the moon in the sky
for helping me to complete,
my history project...

OH YA! i cant believe i am blogging at this hour.
but i dont think i will get the opportunity to blog for a long time!

anyway,
hectic week 9 and 10 coming out.
chinese new year is over.
my eyes are bulging right now for starring at at html for 7h.
and now, i need sleep.

HEE HEE!
anyway,
cant wait for holiday to come! : DDD

2010-02-25T16:35:00.002+08:00

rejoice always

i improved on higher chinese paper!
woots!
may blessings start rolling in please...

2010-02-23T19:57:00.002+08:00

totally saddened that i broke my record
after all As, all band 1, etc
i got a b4 for a maths
and seriously, i am totally shocked by it
i always wanted to be straight A for maths.
i am already bad in chinese, i cannot afford to drop in my maths grade!
what is going on?
what is going wrong?
what is wrong with my results?
what is wrong with my study methods?
sigh.

*bangs head to wall*

this is my prayer tonight:
PRAYER FOR A SONG IN THE NIGHT
Lord, Your word says that when we seek You, You will give us a song in the night. When i am going through a dark night of the soul, i pray You would enlighten my darkness with Your presence. In the face of the darkest situation in my life, I lift up songs of praise to You, knowing Your presence will inhabit them. Amen.

2010-02-22T16:50:00.002+08:00

declare this:

Romans 8:37-39
" No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels or demons, neither the present or future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord"

Amen!

Ps: yesterday was a great sunday that i had not had for so long.
Praise God!
oh ya, cant wait for glee season to come back! : DDD

2010-02-21T17:22:00.002+08:00

wow, have not blog for a quite a long time.

well guess what hectic weekend is over!
hee hee, hectic but fun
and i have to say that i am indeed bless!

today,
210210
is my official first time leading worship in church myself
quite cool huh, 21o is like repeated
and the number 21 stands for 1st feb (my birthday)!
HAHAH! maybe i think too much, but quite symbolic.
and i have to say i enjoyed myself!
i mean it wasnt that bad.
the bible has this verse that says that though times now may be suffering, but the rewards are even better!
dont you think after a week of hectic preparations for worship,
when it is over, you feel that you have achieved something great?!
i really enjoyed leading worship,
my calling?!

so, fri i lead cell worship
i was quite amazed that i am not as scared as before
quite confident actually.
PRAISE GOD!

(ps: right now i am scractching my arm, got bitten by some insect, itchy ttm!)

then on sat, i was out for the whole day
like seriously,
WHOLE DAY!
and i was quite shocked that my parents allowed!

morning has worship prac, things were moving slow
and i was quite scared, dani "ditched" me.
hee hee!
but hey, i think i did quite a good job in leading the practice!
but can improve though.
cause we ended seriously late and i didnt have time to eat lunch
before leaders' training started
lesson was long, but the show is great!
i really think Patch Adams is a remarkable man!
full of passion and desire to be a doctor
i want to have the same passion as him, i want this kind of passion for God!

then i had to rush to meet janice at braddel before heading to jessica's faraway school
located at the other side of the country, temasek.
LOL!
took a long time getting there, but the performance was cool!
jessica worked hard!
: DDD
oh ya, it was my first time being an audience for someone else's performance
coolios!

then today, worship leading day
and then it was off to BK to eat
love rachel raja for the card
love nat for the hug
love gwen for putting down the phone to hug
love jan for listening ear
love zy for going home with me ( well not all the way though)
appreciate fatty benny for the lecture
appreciate quek for running back home to get my stuff
appreciate the worship team for playing so awesomely well
appreciate everyone who encouraged and prayed for me before worship
etc etc etc

right now, i am just doing my work and bored of it too.
i dont have that much work as i expected!
teehee!

alright, another week of school!
guess what, this wed, rachel, nat n jan coming over, gwen too? : DDD

2010-02-18T18:00:00.002+08:00

Psalms 78:38
" yet He was merciful; He forgave their iniquities and did not destroy them. Time after time He restrained His anger and did not stir up His full wrath"

if i was only as calm and as forgiving as God...

ya,
i realised that i can give advises to people
but cant apply it to myself

guess what failed chinese compo!
and i actually passed, but thanks to all the wrong words.
i failed
BY ONE MARK!
how "great" is that...
hmph

and right now,
i feel worried
how am i gonna lead worship for tomorrow and sunday if my attitude aint right
i need to set things right
need a refreshing start.

2010-02-16T13:46:00.002+08:00

yup,
i spent chinese new year in malaysia!
it was truely an awesome time

first day-sat
was caught in traffic jam for 2hours,
wait not one jam but two jams! madness!
it took us nearly 6 hours just to get to our destination.
twice the actual time needed.
watched movies,
did a bit of physics revision,
and had dinner with the entire mother's side of the family.
"tuan yuan fan" in chinese.
steamboat was great!

second day-sun
oh it was chinese new year! and i woke up late.
had to rush with everything!
guess what, everyone woke up late as well!
so ya, like usual,
visit relatives,
get angbaos,
eat a lot!
i was totally satisfied with my bagua! plus shandy!
then whole family ate at uncle's house
followed by a night movie- we watched percy jackson and the lightening thief.
totaly good show! : D
i got quite freak out in the front part and held my cousin's hand so tightly
got super excited till i started bouncing on the chair with every impact.
ya, people, dont watch movies with me! : DDD

third day- mon
it was the second day of chinese new year
aka my chinese birthday!
*hint*
so ya, woke up late again, but mostly
did not really have much going on today.
watched 2 movies in the house,
catch up with devotion,
then accompanied my cousin, and my cousin's cousin to go shopping
at the shopping centre, almost all the shops were close, how to shop
ended up, i bought something, while they came back empty handed.
oh yes, we ate sushi too! HAHAHHA!

then off to my aunt's house for another family dinner
she is an awesome cook!
the 4 of us, huisan, sieling,jie hao and myself slacked at huisan's room
while the rest were playing with fire crackers and stuff downstairs.
oh well, skip the detais,
then we went to funfair! HAHAH!
i seriously stink at all the booths.
oh well, came back and chat with my cousin till 1am.
was waiting for uncle to pick her up.
then
TADAA!
here i am in singapore.

forth day- tues
yup, left the house early in the morning.
no jam at all.
sobs.

as i come back to singapore, i just feel all the responsibities loaded on my shoulders again.
so much things to do,
so litte time.

yup,
growth is struggle.

2010-02-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

Group picture for Crossings 2! : DDD
Thanks Janice and Zhang Yi for coming to support too!
Love you guys ttm!

Today's Devotion:
Psalms 71 (2 things to note):

1. praying for your future
In this psalm, prayer for our future has been prayer like twice
a prayer of thanksgiving when you were an infant
a prayer of joy as a teenager
a prayer of declaration when you become old

Psalms 71: 5-6
" For You have been my hope, O Soverign Lord, my confidence since my youth. From birth I have relied on You; You brought me forth from my mother's womb. I will ever praise You."
Psalms 71:17-18
" Since my youth, O God, You have taught me, and to this day i declare Your marvelous deeds. Even when I am old and gray, do not forsake me, O God, till i declare Your power to the next generation, Your might to all who are to come."

Not only does it mention us, but our future generations as well.
Isnt it good to keep your future under the guidance of the Lord.
Isnt it good to keep your future generation under the protection of a blessing?
that they may never fall into evil?

Do not look down on prayer
for your future and for your children.
The strength of words are remarkable!
especially for prayer
(but it can be dangerous- do not curse)

2. Struggles aint bad
Psalms 71: 20-21
"Though You have made me see troubles, many and bitter, You will restore my life again; form the depths of the earth You will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again."

Today during cca, mrs gurong said this
"Growing is struggle"
What she meant is that, when we want to grow (spiritually, morally, physically etc)
we can only do that when we face troubles,
when we are tested by challenges God put in our lives.

Everyday,
we learn something new( refering to good)
and challenges God place in our lives are just tests that show us whether or not we truely learn something.
example: lets say for running
we want to be a good runner, therefore we train everyday
but what determines whether we truely obtain that title of being a good runner?
a competition! whether we do well or not.

Joy said to me this before,
"Difficulties are like opportunities in workclothes"
we overcome them not by sitting down and waiting for something to happen
but we overcome them by facing them
yes, the process in tough, but the reward is truely sweet.
no pain; no gain.

think about this,
what are some of the rewards we will receive when overcoming a challenge?
Overcoming challenges= YOU! becoming a stronger and wiser person!
thus, problems are nothing to mourn about,
but something to give thanks!

Sing Praise at all times!
Cause God does things for a purpose.

2010-02-08T18:01:00.002+08:00

Romans 2: 1-16

That was what i read during my devotion today
and i guess what the bible says is true
i guess i am being judgemental nowadays
unknowingly, i comment on things which i barely have any information about

they bible says that why do we judge the speck in our neighbour's eye when we cant even judge the plank in ours?!

do you know when we judge others,
we are "cursing" ourself in a sense;
"...for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgement do the same things"
Romans 2:1b

i complain about someone who lies,
but i do lie.
i complain about someone who aint loyal,
but i aint loyal times too.

in the end,
it is not us who will be judges, but God Himself!
as a fair God,
He will " give to each person according to what he has done."
Romans 2: 6
Thus, why waste your own time seeing faults of others, when you can use that precious time to change our own bad habits?!

note:
doesnt mean you are a christian,
means you are spared from the judgement time.
everyone will be judged
"For God does not show favouritism" verse 11

but
why is it so difficult to see our own faults?
why are we blind to our own actions and feelings.
i wish i can have a mirror that reflects my character
i want to know how i can change/ improve.

this is what we should do:
we should follow the Lord's commandments.
not know it, but DO IT!
"For it is not those who hear the law who are righteous in God's sight, but it is those who obey the law who will be declared righteous." verse 13

Amen! : DDD

2010-02-07T16:06:00.002+08:00

2 Chronicles 20 talks about King Jehoshaphat

one day, all the enemies decided to "gang up" against the kingdom in which King Jehoshaphat ruled. Being fearful about the numbers of the enemy, the king seeked counsel from the Lord. and this is what the Lord said,
verse 15 "...Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's.."

On the day of the battle, King Jehoshaphat and his small army were by far defintely outnumbered.
but they stood firm, and Kind Jehoshaphat ordered the "worship team" to stand in front of the army and lead the whole "congregation" into a time of praise.
imagine this scene, a small army against empires! and this small army aint afraid, they dont run but sing praises to God!

And guess what God did?!
He confused the enemies, and they started killing one another.
soon, all the enemies died.
imagine this again, you in the army watching your enemies killing one another and all you have to do is sing praises.

In life,
we do not usually have physical war,but spiritual and emotional war.
daily, we are constantly battling in our heart against the enemy.
we battle not to sin, to choose correctly etc.
as we fight, remember that God is always there and He is fighting along our side.
keep on rejoicing despite the troubles faced.
as
" ...weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning" psalms 30:5

problems,
if taken in the right attitude
can most probably be known as blessings in disguise.
imagine what we can gain just by conquering the problem?
yes, they are truely, treasures in the darkness.

the way to conquering problems:

Faith is something we need
Obedience to listen to God's instructions
Rejoice always
Give God a chance, rely on Him
"I" does not exist, God blessed us with friends and family to pray together, build each other up
Voice out truthfully ( have good relational and functional boundaries)
Everyday, pray for deliverance

the spells- forgive.
get it?! : )))

2010-02-06T12:44:00.002+08:00

Yo, i am feeling utter confused right now
Only crossings can make me happy, but sadly it is over! i can still remember the feeling of being
Under the spotlight. sweetness : D a cool experience

Lead cell yesterday
Exciting n cool experience
Feeling was so, as isnt it great to be able to lead people, to help them understand stuff?
Totally enjoyed leading and will look forward to the next one!

Well, good things dont always last
I, as always, face another new problem once something is solve
That kinda stinks right.
How i wish i am able to say what i want anytime without
Offending people
U will truely understand the situation then
To you, it may be small, but it is big for me.

Argh!

God, why cant you just take away the oversensitive part of me
Over thinking
Over analysing
Day might been better
-
But you created me just the way i am, i should love myself
You created me beautifully and wonderfully made
Except, why cant i feel that way

(actually, i already stated the "trigger event", you just have to read it from top to bottom again)
____________________________________

my prayer:
Lord! i dont know what is going on with me. who is wrong, who is right. honestly speaking, i am deeply hurt by things going on around me. tiny actions, which seem insignificant to many, but really, it is like a knife ripping my heart out. they might be unaware, but my heart aches each time, each second. i am in a fork road, where i stand between two lanes, two roads. worst of all, there is no sign post (direction), no clear sign. the people whom i care the most vanishes, am i am left to struggle alone. life me up o Lord, and heatrmy cries. May Romans 1:12 be fulfilled and may joy comes in the daylight!

2010-02-03T23:33:00.002+08:00

i am really squeezing time right now to blog.
what is happening now.
CROSSING 2!

today spend entire day at arts house, "rehearsing"
ya, we were just slacking at the back stage.
i have not even got the chance to practice anything.
well, a lot of bonding time, picture timing and homeworking!
teehee!
but tomorrow shall be a hectic day.
rehearsal, real one, starts and everyone is gonna sweat to the max!
despite freezing aircon.
jan and zy are coming to watch! they MUST BE PUNCTUAL
and i hope they rememeber to bring the tickets *hint*
(post the photos soon)

and went to church for first cell discussion.
it was fun and funny! hahaha!
maybe being a leader aint that bad... hmmm...

anyway,
for my birthday.
well on sunday.
nat, gwen, jan, rachel, zy, abel, jon leong, chris chew and yangyi brought me around.
started off with dropping one stop at amk for fun.
then went to city hall.
ate at pizza hut and played!
then went to esplanade to play somemore!
gonna post the 2 videos of chrischew and abel really soon.
its gonna be a hit!
HAHAHAHAHHA!
my aim: 1 million viewers

oh yes, and my awesome friends gave me a super duper beautiful board full of cards, plus zy gave me bag and rest arh...well, they waiting for friday.
got delivered a present on my actual birthday too!
woots!

most importantly, i passed my chinese test!
ya, cant u believe it?
a pass!
praise GOD!
i can just cry!

love should not be given out of a condition but out of freewill

2010-02-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

have to make this quick
today is my birthday woots!
love all my friend to the max,
especially those on the top! : DDD
hahaha!
and yes, school friends too etc etc etc
.
omg! i need to off the com! and i have not said what i have done.
leave that story for another day okay? : DDD

hahah!
cant u believe it!
i am 15!!!!

2010-01-30T12:56:00.003+08:00

hee hee!
i have not blog for like the entire week?!
oh well,
update on my life!

life has been busy, especially with all the projects such as chinese new year deco and stuff
woah!
i think i am in need of sleep too!
homework just keep on coming and coming...
and there is something fishy going on in school.
just dont know what is it yet.

and yesterday, munchers went over to rachel raja's house for cell!
watched a super awesome movie by steven spielberd (argh! cannot spell)
but sadly, we didnt get to complete the whole movie
something is really wrong with the dvd player or cd.
ate a lot!
good food man! but did not get to eat my banana split!
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but went home late!
haha! for once! : DDD

yes, my birthday is coming!
2 more days only!
but i cant celebrate on 1st feb, : (
no time.
oh well, tomorrow will be the celebration day.
excited : DDDD

oh well,
right now i am taking a break from studying.

speaking of taking a break,
cant you believe that march holidays is coming?!
half a term has already passed!
how quick is that.
anyway,
i am having a problem.
i need to get a lot of cip hours and cca point this year!
for the sake of the minus 2points in JC!
thus, i want to go for the school mission trip in march.
it does not collide with the "getaway camp" but my parents say i can only choose one.
sobs!

how do you choose!
studies or spiritual life?!
people tell me, ask yourself lydia, what would Jesus do...
seriously, i ask you back, what do you think HE will do.
i am not sure myself!
my dad say, Jesus would honour His parents,
but remember when Jesus was young, His parents thought they lost Him, but He was at the house of God listening and talking about God.
He chose spiritual. and i do not know what to choose now.
it aint easy to decide!
why cant i do both?
i do not believe i am that kind of person who has to give up one for the other.
i can excel in both! I CAN!
i heard of so many people's testimonies about how they live their life serving God and yet score super well!
i want to be them.
and right now, what i need is God.
only He can tell me what to do,
only He can tell my parents, convince them...

oh well!
smile lydia!
tomorrow is the day! : DDD

2 Timothy 2:1 NIV
...be strong in the grace that is in Christ Jesus.